srruggling with my gain....lookin for feedback

[HDANGEL15]

I have not quit working out....but have very much gotten derailed...I have easily put on at least 20# or more..actually the SCALE is too frieghtening to get on...although I love the idea of gaining..and am seriously turned on by the thought...and fantasize about it...I am not sure I can make the leap...how did others make that decision...or surrender? heres a few I took last nite..before going on my *FIRST DATE* with someone that wants to FEED me and make me his own BBW or SSBBW ....it was intriguing and unusual....after we shared dessert and i had the coconut shrimp YUMMMM..i was sorta seductively rubbing my new little spare tire..and man ..he reached over and rubbed and squeezed on it..and wow!!!!!!!!!!!!! hot......any thoughts are welcome...xox

[Wagimawr]

You look wonderful - I'd say the best advice I have is most DEFINITELY don't change something just because it gets you a little bit of attention from one guy.

The big question for you is this: you've made reference to the fact that you've lost weight in the past - is it worth it to you to maintain that weight loss, or is the bigger interest for you in getting steadily fatter?

[imfree]

From my FA point of view, you look to be a nice hug and cuddle.

[Fuzzy Necromancer]

May I offer you an article on this very subject?

Deciding to get fat (http://www.geocities.com/doctorfeeder/dtgf.html)

[Buckeye Born]

Since you are turned on by the thought of gaining, and have already gained some, you are already half way there. I think you have a darn cute belly. I think the other half, the "making the leap" is to stop caring what others say about you. It doesn't matter what others say, what matters is how you feel about yourself.

[love dubh]

HDA, you'd said in another post that it'd been your goal/dream to be in the best shape of your life by the time you were 50, and I'm assuming that you'd like to continue to be as healthy and active as you promised yourself. Do you think that gaining would hinder that ultimate goal you'd set for yourself? Consider that, too.


And like Wagi said, don't do something just because it gets the attention of your flavor-of-the-week....flavors change. Ain't worth it, girlfriend.

[HDANGEL15]

enuf said.....thanks so much....thats all I needed.....

so alas..back to diets and NO more sugar, flour or wheat..eating was fun and enjoyable...but I do consider myself a FOOD ADDICT....one bite is too many..1000 is never enough....MODERATION is not something i get...addiction runs deep

I'm right on my way back to 200...and I won't be comfortable in that skin although the fantsys are fun....I do love so many of the women that post here regularly...and respect there confidence IMMENSELY

[Fuzzy Necromancer]

You're cutting flour and wheat out of your diet? How do you accomplish that? o.0

[HDANGEL15]

You're cutting flour and wheat out of your diet? How do you accomplish that? o.0

I ate like that for 10 yrs and found a way to maintain weight for my first time in my life...in a nutshell ..I spent my life on a vicious roller coaster...gaining/ dieting....and very succesful at BOTH LOLOL....

i finally found a solution that allowed me to maintain.....and that was eliminating flour, sugar and wheat..I DO EAT brown rice, and potatoes AND WHOLE grains like Oatmeal ...or as I like to see it.....everything God grows..just nothing processed or fried etc....it works for me...but it is time consuming and takes lots of preparation.....and planning day to day..and after 10 yrs i just crashed...

i guess i am at the breaking point...spent so many decades admiring and lusting after BHM, before I even knew what that was...and plunging into this site..and seeking it more..has helped me to consider the other side of the coin..but alas..I know me..and I have to be HAPPY...and take care of me..and feel comfy in my OWN skin...to thine own self be true ;)

[imfree]

May I offer you an article on this very subject?

Deciding to get fat (http://www.geocities.com/doctorfeeder/dtgf.html)
(Reasons To Gain Weight)
"You find it erotic. Of course, this is one of the main reasons people gain on purpose. If you feel that way, you already understand it better than I could ever explain. If you don't, you probably never will."

WOW the guy who wrote that, really NAILED it!

[love dubh]

I ate like that for 10 yrs and found a way to maintain weight for my first time in my life...in a nutshell ..I spent my life on a vicious roller coaster...gaining/ dieting....and very succesful at BOTH LOLOL....

i finally found a solution that allowed me to maintain.....and that was eliminating flour, sugar and wheat..I DO EAT brown rice, and potatoes AND WHOLE grains like Oatmeal ...or as I like to see it.....everything God grows..just nothing processed or fried etc....it works for me...but it is time consuming and takes lots of preparation.....and planning day to day..and after 10 yrs i just crashed...

i guess i am at the breaking point...spent so many decades admiring and lusting after BHM, before I even knew what that was...and plunging into this site..and seeking it more..has helped me to consider the other side of the coin..but alas..I know me..and I have to be HAPPY...and take care of me..and feel comfy in my OWN skin...to thine own self be true ;)

If that's a crash after ten years, then I say you deserved that break! Such a diet requires a herculian will!

[HDANGEL15]

If that's a crash after ten years, then I say you deserved that break! Such a diet requires a herculian will!

once I get the substances OUT OF MY SYSTEM I NO LONGER CRAVE them...sugar is just like alcohol or a drug to me....one sip is TOO many, and 1000 is not enough....so as long as I dont take the first bite I DONT want sugar really....same for flour or wheat...I get used to it and love eating that way...all whole foods and vegetables and fruits and fish and chicken etc is yummy actually....just TIME CONSUMING and a little more expensive ..and riding harleys is not conducive to such on the road especially <sigh>

but true that..after 10 yrs a 2 or 3 yr break has been fun, but it is catching up to me and a roller coaster ride has begun :D

[ChubbyBlackSista]

Hey Angel
Well you need to stop working out if you want to gain weight I can still see some tone in those pics you've attached to your post

[GrowingBoy]

once I get the substances OUT OF MY SYSTEM I NO LONGER CRAVE them...sugar is just like alcohol or a drug to me....one sip is TOO many, and 1000 is not enough....

I know the feeling, HDA. When I have sugar, I can't stop eating. I can easily put on 5 pounds in a day. Also, my blood chemistry gets out of wack, and I feel tired much of the time. So I just have to be abstinent.

That said, your chubby new belly is cute - poke, poke :)

[activistfatgirl]

If you're deciding to stay slender, maybe experiment with ways that you can fantasize with a partner about your own weight gain, in a way that allows you to explore those feelings but not actually do it in real life? I dunno, something I always think about.

[HDANGEL15]

If you're deciding to stay slender, maybe experiment with ways that you can fantasize with a partner about your own weight gain, in a way that allows you to explore those feelings but not actually do it in real life? I dunno, something I always think about.


yeah..thats what I NEED TO DO EXACTLY.....I appreciate your thoughts...I just never reversed the tables before and got into the fat for MY BODY..and I realize I am not comfortable...but fantasizing ROCKS :D