What is making you SAD right now...

[HottiMegan]

I'm sad because Alex's speech teacher brought up the idea that Alex might have speech apraxia. It's a neurological condition that makes it difficult to transmit the thoughts into the muscles in the mouth to make speech. The little i've read says that speech can help and kids who have it eventually catch up but it's scary to think my boy might have problems talking forever. All a mom wants is her kids to be healthy and happy and this might hinder the happy part :(

[snuggletiger]

Hopefully they caught it early and can work with him to help:)

[BigBeautifulMe]

I'm sad because Alex's speech teacher brought up the idea that Alex might have speech apraxia. It's a neurological condition that makes it difficult to transmit the thoughts into the muscles in the mouth to make speech. The little i've read says that speech can help and kids who have it eventually catch up but it's scary to think my boy might have problems talking forever. All a mom wants is her kids to be healthy and happy and this might hinder the happy part :(
I have a speech disorder, too, Megan. I went through speech therapy my entire childhood and I still have it. But you know what? I don't let it stop me. It's part of what makes me, me, and most people I date actually find it part of my charm. If this is indeed something Alex has to contend with, please know it will not necessarily have an detrimental effect on his happiness in the long run.

[mel]

life...my life to be exact. today is one of the saddest days.

[Sweetie]

life...my life to be exact. today is one of the saddest days.

{{{{HUGS}}}}

[milfy]

hubby is away until friday on a training course at work - boo sucks

[SarahLaughsAlot]

I'm sorry mel! i think you are a sammisweetheart♥ lol. I hope that everything begins to look up! you certainly deserve it. you're very kind and sweet! this too shall pass. I promise

[SarahLaughsAlot]

Aww! i'm really sorry to hear that he'll be in my thoughts and prayers and so will you! stay strong! for you and him! =) if i can do anything just let me know. i have faith =)

[spiritangel]

that the once in a blue moon I meet a guy who is remotely compatable with me he either vanishes into the ethers or turns out to be a smoker who would not even consider giving up

I want to cry

[CAMellie]

I lost my momma one month ago today...on what would have been my wedding day. Momma was so excited about planning our reception. Now we're just going to go off and quietly get married with no fanfare. It just wouldn't be the same without my momma.

[HottiMegan]

Hopefully they caught it early and can work with him to help:)

I am hoping that he'll be on track by kindergarten. That's a little over 2 years away. I'm glad I disagreed with the pediatrician. He didn't want to recommend me to a specialist. He was of the wait and see opinion.

I have a speech disorder, too, Megan. I went through speech therapy my entire childhood and I still have it. But you know what? I don't let it stop me. It's part of what makes me, me, and most people I date actually find it part of my charm. If this is indeed something Alex has to contend with, please know it will not necessarily have an detrimental effect on his happiness in the long run.

Thanks for sharing your story. My older son, Max has speech thanks to being born with a cleft palate and hearing loss. I suspect he'll always have to work on his communication. I hope Alex starts to communicate better with his therapy too. Once he's three, he'll get therapy at the school and they're planning on twice a week instead of just one that he's getting now. I think that will help. Also, with an apraxia diagnosis, they approach speech therapy differently, so i'm hoping it will help.

Aww! i'm really sorry to hear that he'll be in my thoughts and prayers and so will you! stay strong! for you and him! =) if i can do anything just let me know. i have faith =)


Thank you. I'm just waiting for the days that he can tell me what he wants. The tantrums will be a lot less frustrating then..

[HottiMegan]

I lost my momma one month ago today...on what would have been my wedding day. Momma was so excited about planning our reception. Now we're just going to go off and quietly get married with no fanfare. It just wouldn't be the same without my momma.

I'm sorry you're going through so much.

[snuggletiger]

I'm sorry you're going through so much.

What about contacting the Shriners Hospital in Sacramento?

[HottiMegan]

Hmm.I dunno if they do speech stuff. My older son, Max, is a patient there for foot and leg stuff. We're due to go back soon for his check up, i'll see if they work with neurological cases. We don't have an official diagnosis yet. We just have two therapists saying it's most likely so.

[CAMellie]

I'm sorry you're going through so much.

Thank you, Megan.

[ThikJerseyChik]

I am in a marriage that was shattered four years ago by infidelity - and because of my commitment to him and our marriage, I decided to try to move forward with him after he came clean and begged for forgiveness and another chance.

The problem is - there is nothing left inside. I love him, but the feelings that were alive prior to this event are gone. I cannot watch love stories on TV or in the movies, they just rip my already broken heart out.

Because I know this information would rock his world, I keep this to myself. I am living a lie and it's killing me from the inside out.

He is a very good man in a lot of ways - he should have looked at the entire picture before thinking that infidelity was the answer. I just can't get past it. :really sad:

[mel]

I am sending (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((BIG HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS))))))))))))) )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) to everyone needing them today!

[Mathias]

People who don't realize the gravity of their words and how they may effect others. :really sad:

[Surlysomething]

I am in a marriage that was shattered four years ago by infidelity - and because of my commitment to him and our marriage, I decided to try to move forward with him after he came clean and begged for forgiveness and another chance.

The problem is - there is nothing left inside. I love him, but the feelings that were alive prior to this event are gone. I cannot watch love stories on TV or in the movies, they just rip my already broken heart out.

Because I know this information would rock his world, I keep this to myself. I am living a lie and it's killing me from the inside out.

He is a very good man in a lot of ways - he should have looked at the entire picture before thinking that infidelity was the answer. I just can't get past it. :really sad:

I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time. :(

[BigBeautifulMe]

I am in a marriage that was shattered four years ago by infidelity - and because of my commitment to him and our marriage, I decided to try to move forward with him after he came clean and begged for forgiveness and another chance.

The problem is - there is nothing left inside. I love him, but the feelings that were alive prior to this event are gone. I cannot watch love stories on TV or in the movies, they just rip my already broken heart out.

Because I know this information would rock his world, I keep this to myself. I am living a lie and it's killing me from the inside out.

He is a very good man in a lot of ways - he should have looked at the entire picture before thinking that infidelity was the answer. I just can't get past it. :really sad:

It makes me really sad to see such a good person in so much pain they did nothing to deserve.

You said "because of my commitment to him and our marriage, I decided to try to move forward with him..." What commitment has HE shown to your marriage? You live with this pain every day... do you think he would do the same? He showed no commitment to the marriage under far better circumstances than you are dealing with right now. It seems to me (as someone without the full picture... I know) that you deserve so much better. Why commit yourself to something that only causes you pain? I'm sure you love him, but... love doesn't betray, and that has already happened. As your signature says, "if you keep doing what you've always done..." It doesn't sound like your feelings about the situation are going to change. As painful as it will be, maybe it's time to give up this terrible situation and see what better life awaits you outside of it.

*Hugs*

[ThikJerseyChik]

Thank you BBM, you have certainly given me food for thought.

Right after it happened, he was going over and beyond what my expectations are..and I do believe he will never do it again and is truly sorry for his actions -

BUT

Fast forward to now...there is little in the way of romance, intimacy and it's like trying to tango alone.

It just sux.

[shinyapple]

I've been caring for my grandmother for the last several weeks as she's gotten progressively weaker and weaker and her heart continues to fail. Hospice came on board about ten days ago and in the last 48 hours, she's just gone downhill. She's not even herself anymore and she's said repeatedly she doesn't want to suffer.

I made the suggestion today that it's time to disconnect her ICD (the defibrillator on her pacemaker) and we all agreed it should happen tomorrow. Her passing is imminent once that occurs.

I am so not ready for this.

[BigBeautifulMe]

Thank you BBM, you have certainly given me food for thought.

Right after it happened, he was going over and beyond what my expectations are..and I do believe he will never do it again and is truly sorry for his actions -

BUT

Fast forward to now...there is little in the way of romance, intimacy and it's like trying to tango alone.

It just sux.

So sorry. :( *more hugs* I can't even imagine being in that kind of situation. I really feel for you. :(

[BigBeautifulMe]

I've been caring for my grandmother for the last several weeks as she's gotten progressively weaker and weaker and her heart continues to fail. Hospice came on board about ten days ago and in the last 48 hours, she's just gone downhill. She's not even herself anymore and she's said repeatedly she doesn't want to suffer.

I made the suggestion today that it's time to disconnect her ICD (the defibrillator on her pacemaker) and we all agreed it should happen tomorrow. Her passing is imminent once that occurs.

I am so not ready for this.
((((((((((((E))))))))))))) I am so, so sorry. Losing a loved one is so hard to go through. :( I'm here if you need anything.

[shinyapple]

((((((((((((E))))))))))))) I am so, so sorry. Losing a loved one is so hard to go through. :( I'm here if you need anything.

Thanks, Gin. I appreciate that :)

[Lamia]

I've been caring for my grandmother for the last several weeks as she's gotten progressively weaker and weaker and her heart continues to fail. Hospice came on board about ten days ago and in the last 48 hours, she's just gone downhill. She's not even herself anymore and she's said repeatedly she doesn't want to suffer.

I made the suggestion today that it's time to disconnect her ICD (the defibrillator on her pacemaker) and we all agreed it should happen tomorrow. Her passing is imminent once that occurs.

I am so not ready for this.

That is very sad I am sorry for your pain.

[Lamia]

I wanted to give an update about my niece's husband who was in the serious car accident and was a vegetable. My niece said his mom hasn't been texting for the last week. She hasn't been to see him because she has been sick and didn't want to infect him. She didn't know why his mom wouldn't text her back. I woke up this morning and thought to myself..."either he has passed away or he has recovered" as to why she's not texting my niece.

Well, she walked into his room today at the nursing home and said "Hi Tyler" and he said "Hi Nickie". She said she almost passed out. Apparently the neurosurgeon says he's going to be just fine.

I knew he was going to be ok. I have felt it for a very long time. I know this is the sad thread but I couldn't find the happy one.

I can't stop crying tears of joy.

:D

[Surlysomething]

I wanted to give an update about my niece's husband who was in the serious car accident and was a vegetable. My niece said his mom hasn't been texting for the last week. She hasn't been to see him because she has been sick and didn't want to infect him. She didn't know why his mom wouldn't text her back. I woke up this morning and thought to myself..."either he has passed away or he has recovered" as to why she's not texting my niece.

Well, she walked into his room today at the nursing home and said "Hi Tyler" and he said "Hi Nickie". She said she almost passed out. Apparently the neurosurgeon says he's going to be just fine.

I knew he was going to be ok. I have felt it for a very long time. I know this is the sad thread but I couldn't find the happy one.

I can't stop crying tears of joy.

:D

Oh wow, that's so amazing! I'm happy for all your family. You deserved something miraculous to happen. :)

[BigBeautifulMe]

Oh Lamia, I am SO happy for you! :wubu: That is the best news on here today!!!

[Mathias]

I wanted to give an update about my niece's husband who was in the serious car accident and was a vegetable. My niece said his mom hasn't been texting for the last week. She hasn't been to see him because she has been sick and didn't want to infect him. She didn't know why his mom wouldn't text her back. I woke up this morning and thought to myself..."either he has passed away or he has recovered" as to why she's not texting my niece.

Well, she walked into his room today at the nursing home and said "Hi Tyler" and he said "Hi Nickie". She said she almost passed out. Apparently the neurosurgeon says he's going to be just fine.

I knew he was going to be ok. I have felt it for a very long time. I know this is the sad thread but I couldn't find the happy one.

I can't stop crying tears of joy.

:D

That's such amazing news!

[luvbigfellas]

I'm like, bawling, right now because I feel completely worthless and like I completely wasted four years of my life getting a fancy piece of paper which I can basically wipe my ass with.

Hours are getting massively cut at my job, I'm going to have to move soon, and I'm not going to have any money to do it. I'm really trying to find another job, been filling out apps like mad, but to no avail yet.

I'm fucking scared. I've been homeless before and it totally sucked. And I can't go back home. My mom just kind of laughs it off or says she's sorry for me but there's nothing she can do. I don't have any friends I can move in with for awhile.

I just feel really fucking lost right now.

[Lamia]

thank you everyone for your thoughts and prayers maybe the shitstorm that has been this year is going to be better now.

I spent yesterday at my cousin's funeral so this news today has really boltstered everyone's spirits.

[ThikJerseyChik]

I wanted to give an update about my niece's husband who was in the serious car accident and was a vegetable. My niece said his mom hasn't been texting for the last week. She hasn't been to see him because she has been sick and didn't want to infect him. She didn't know why his mom wouldn't text her back. I woke up this morning and thought to myself..."either he has passed away or he has recovered" as to why she's not texting my niece.

Well, she walked into his room today at the nursing home and said "Hi Tyler" and he said "Hi Nickie". She said she almost passed out. Apparently the neurosurgeon says he's going to be just fine.

I knew he was going to be ok. I have felt it for a very long time. I know this is the sad thread but I couldn't find the happy one.

I can't stop crying tears of joy.

:D

This is a true blessing from God - how wonderful!

[ThikJerseyChik]

I'm like, bawling, right now because I feel completely worthless and like I completely wasted four years of my life getting a fancy piece of paper which I can basically wipe my ass with.

Hours are getting massively cut at my job, I'm going to have to move soon, and I'm not going to have any money to do it. I'm really trying to find another job, been filling out apps like mad, but to no avail yet.

I'm fucking scared. I've been homeless before and it totally sucked. And I can't go back home. My mom just kind of laughs it off or says she's sorry for me but there's nothing she can do. I don't have any friends I can move in with for awhile.

I just feel really fucking lost right now.

((((((luvbigfellas))))))) We are here to support you and never give up hope. It ain't over till it's over.....chin up.

[luvbigfellas]

It'll work out in time. Just need to remember that.

[Lamia]

I'm like, bawling, right now because I feel completely worthless and like I completely wasted four years of my life getting a fancy piece of paper which I can basically wipe my ass with.

Hours are getting massively cut at my job, I'm going to have to move soon, and I'm not going to have any money to do it. I'm really trying to find another job, been filling out apps like mad, but to no avail yet.

I'm fucking scared. I've been homeless before and it totally sucked. And I can't go back home. My mom just kind of laughs it off or says she's sorry for me but there's nothing she can do. I don't have any friends I can move in with for awhile.

I just feel really fucking lost right now.

I am praying for you. I am praying that you have peace of mind and peace in your spirit with the knowledge that you while it may feel like you're alone in the flesh you're never alone in the spirit. People reading your post feel your despair and we reach out to you and pray for you to be comforted and for things to be well with you.

love,

Diann :)

[penguin]

I'd give you all great big hugs if I could. I hope that things get better for you all soon.

[1love_emily]

Graduation season is now over. No more parties, no more cake, no more awkwardly standing around talking to distant relatives and friends from school who aren't really your friends...


But I gained 20 pounds in the process.

I still look good! But I hate that my favorite skinny jeans can't be buttoned any more :/ I'm going to try to get back into my size 22's but I feel like Old Navy has been significantly making waistbands smaller and smaller.

Damn.

Yay carrots?

[Diana_Prince245]

None of my scub bottoms fit because I've lost weight.

Boooooooooooo!

[Punkin1024]

I'm like, bawling, right now because I feel completely worthless and like I completely wasted four years of my life getting a fancy piece of paper which I can basically wipe my ass with.

Hours are getting massively cut at my job, I'm going to have to move soon, and I'm not going to have any money to do it. I'm really trying to find another job, been filling out apps like mad, but to no avail yet.

I'm fucking scared. I've been homeless before and it totally sucked. And I can't go back home. My mom just kind of laughs it off or says she's sorry for me but there's nothing she can do. I don't have any friends I can move in with for awhile.

I just feel really fucking lost right now.

I'm so sorry you are having a very rough go of it right now. I'll be praying that a good job will be available for you very soon. "hugs"

[disconnectedsmile]

i'm a better person. i've learned from my mistakes. i've grown up.
but she doesn't see it.
not to say i blame her.
but i wish she did.

[CastingPearls]

Betrayal ..

[CAMellie]

I hit my head pretty hard yesterday - dizzy, double-vision, nausea, sleepy, a severe headache, and a mushy lumpy spot on the back of my head - but I couldn't go to the hospital because my insurance was cut off.

[BigBeautifulMe]

Mellie, honey - that seriously sounds like a concussion. Hospitals will work out payment plans with people who can't afford to pay. Seriously - go get it looked at.

[CAMellie]

Mellie, honey - that seriously sounds like a concussion. Hospitals will work out payment plans with people who can't afford to pay. Seriously - go get it looked at.

I wish I could, Gin, but we're having to pay cash for my doctor's visits and medications, as it is. On top of rent, our internet bill, and our cell phone bill...it's just not possible even with payments. :(
It would have been different if momma hadn't passed away (we paid out almost $900 in the past month to cover expenses)...but there it is.

[shinyapple]

That is very sad I am sorry for your pain.

Thank you, Lamia.

My grandmother passed Sunday evening after a very long, very scary day of rapid decline. Even the hospice nurse didn't expect her to go so soon, but it was time. I'm supposed to be writing the obituary and designing the funeral program right now, but I'm procrastinating on it.

I'm glad she isn't sick and miserable any longer, but I miss her so much. I don't know what to do with myself and I childishly always wanted my grandma to be there. I used to tell people I had the ideal grandma - she was the lunchroom lady and baked cookies at home. She had a kind word and a smile for everyone. She was my best friend as a child and will always be in my heart.

[Zandoz]

I can't shake this infection :(

[CAMellie]

More worried than sad...that the so-called family that abandoned my mother after my sister died won't even bother to show up to say good-bye to her at her memorial Saturday. One of my momma's biggest fears was that nobody would show up at her memorial. :(

[fat9276]

Just a weary day today. :(

[littlefairywren]

Just a weary day today. :(

Big cuddly hugs, dear B.

[CAMellie]

One by one...they're sending their "regrets". I guess taking a single day from work to say goodbye to a family member is entirely too much trouble.

[Lamia]

Well, so much for good news. Tyler is awake and talking, but now he has a serious blood infection. He's back in the ER and may lose his colon or life. My guess would be that he's toxic from the arm they did NOTHING with since they figured he was a vegatable they just put him in a nursing home to die. He's on medicaid so you know what great level of care that gets you.

Please prayer for Tyler right now if you pray. If you don't send positive thoughts. Tell his body to fight off the infection.

Thank you..



Diann

[CAMellie]

Everything is done for my momma's memorial service...now all that's left is to say goodbye. :(

[luvbigfellas]

I didn't get a job a really wanted. But, I live to fight another day.

[SMA413]

I miss my ex. I know I shouldn't because of the way things ended, but I do. I miss the life we had during the first year of our relationship. The last 6 months, though, were a downward spiral that I could have done without.

:(

[rellis10]

An american friend who I have known for several years now is seriously fuming. A friend of his died recently and he just found out his funeral is being picketed by the WBC. He can't be there to honor his friend's memory in such a hostile atmosphere either.

I feel so sorry for him, he really wants to be there.

[Zandoz]

Feeling even worse than I have for the last few weeks...which has been very painful. On top of it, I seem to be totally zoning out for a few seconds to a few minutes, on a regular basis...the lights are on but nobody's home :blink:

[luvbigfellas]

A friend of mine is considering signing up for another stint in the Army. I love him to death and I don't want him to have to do that. I also know that it's likely to be at least a month or two before I see him again. :(

I got terminated from my stupid, crappy albeit necessary job. I gave almost two years to that place, walking there, picking up a bunch of extra shifts, etc. Sigh.

[CAMellie]

Writing this eulogy is tearing my heart apart. If I re-write it any more I'll be talking about momma for 4 hours. :(

[Lamia]

So my nephew has been laying for 7 weeks with a small hole in his colon. They didn't do a very good job looking him over apparently.

He's 28 years old and now he has no colon. They did an ileostomy.

They said he was going to be a vegatable they sent him to the nursing home to die and then he woke up and wasn't just communicating on a limited basis...no he was talking like he always has with his personality fully intact.


and now this....

[CAMellie]

We say goodbye to momma today. Please keep her (and us) in your prayers and/or thoughts. We're going to need it. :(

[Lamia]

We say goodbye to momma today. Please keep her (and us) in your prayers and/or thoughts. We're going to need it. :(

*HUGS* Thinking of you

[CAMellie]

*HUGS* Thinking of you

Thank you, my liege. *hugs*

[luscious_lulu]

I went to see my dad today. It'd been a few weeks since my last visit.

He has had cancer for about 7 years. Because of his age (he's 82) when he was diagnosed he decided not to have surgery/chemo. The cancer had been progressing slowly.

Last time I saw him, he was taking nothing stronger than Tylenol for pain. He is now taking percocet for the pain and that isn't always working. I knew this would come eventually, but it's hard to watch him go through this.

I wrote this poem for him last year and gave it to him.


My Father's Daughter

They say we become our parents.
I am my father's daughter.

I am quick to anger and slow to forgive.
I am, at times, moody and distant.
I can be frustrating and difficult.
I am never without an opinion.
I live my life they way I see fit.
I will fight for what I believe in.
I will not give up when things get tough.
I am fiercely protective of those I hold dear.
I live my life when my head held high.

I may not be perfect, but
I am my father’s daughter.

[Surlysomething]

I went to see my dad today. It'd been a few weeks since my last visit.

He has had cancer for about 7 years. Because of his age (he's 82) when he was diagnosed he decided not to have surgery/chemo. The cancer had been progressing slowly.

Last time I saw him, he was taking nothing stronger than Tylenol for pain. He is now taking percocet for the pain and that isn't always working. I knew this would come eventually, but it's hard to watch him go through this.

I wrote this poem for him last year and gave it to him.


My Father's Daughter

They say we become our parents.
I am my father's daughter.

I am quick to anger and slow to forgive.
I am, at times, moody and distant.
I can be frustrating and difficult.
I am never without an opinion.
I live my life they way I see fit.
I will fight for what I believe in.
I will not give up when things get tough.
I am fiercely protective of those I hold dear.
I live my life when my head held high.

I may not be perfect, but
I am my father’s daughter.


I'm so sorry to hear about your Dad.

And that poem could be me and my Father to a T. Very real.

[luscious_lulu]

I'm so sorry to hear about your Dad.

And that poem could be me and my Father to a T. Very real.

thank you...

[Mathias]

Ryan Dunn of Jackass died in a car accident last night. :really sad:

Link (http://www.tmz.com/2011/06/20/jackass-ryan-dunn-dies-dead-car-crash-accident-pennsylvania/)

[BigBeautifulMe]

Wow, Matt, that's crazy. I was JUST watching the "Minute to Win It" rerun he was in either last night or the night before. Insane.

[Mathias]

Wow, Matt, that's crazy. I was JUST watching the "Minute to Win It" rerun he was in either last night or the night before. Insane.

You'd think with Steve-O almost killing himself with drugs a few years back that would have been a wake up call. It was confirmed that he was the driver. Just sad all around.

[mossystate]

I went to see my dad today. It'd been a few weeks since my last visit.

He has had cancer for about 7 years. Because of his age (he's 82) when he was diagnosed he decided not to have surgery/chemo. The cancer had been progressing slowly.

Last time I saw him, he was taking nothing stronger than Tylenol for pain. He is now taking percocet for the pain and that isn't always working. I knew this would come eventually, but it's hard to watch him go through this.

I wrote this poem for him last year and gave it to him.


My Father's Daughter

They say we become our parents.
I am my father's daughter.

I am quick to anger and slow to forgive.
I am, at times, moody and distant.
I can be frustrating and difficult.
I am never without an opinion.
I live my life they way I see fit.
I will fight for what I believe in.
I will not give up when things get tough.
I am fiercely protective of those I hold dear.
I live my life when my head held high.

I may not be perfect, but
I am my father’s daughter.

That's a lovely and powerful poem, LL. I hope your dad will have his physical pain managed and you will have more lovely moments with him until he needs to go.

[luscious_lulu]

That's a lovely and powerful poem, LL. I hope your dad will have his physical pain managed and you will have more lovely moments with him until he needs to go.

Thank you Mossy.

[succubus_dxb]

My boyfriend and I are on a 'break' after both hurting each other really, really badly. The last couple weeks have been terrible, and I haven't felt heartbreak like this before. Since about the 4th month of our relationship I have assumed I would marry this man.... 18 months in, we were getting ready to move in together, and this has blind-sided me.

[Robbie_Rob]

My boyfriend and I are on a 'break' after both hurting each other really, really badly. The last couple weeks have been terrible, and I haven't felt heartbreak like this before. Since about the 4th month of our relationship I have assumed I would marry this man.... 18 months in, we were getting ready to move in together, and this has blind-sided me.

Sorry to hear that, never good when it happens but it's especially worse when you don't expect it. Keep your head up and make sure you do everything on your own terms.

[Gingembre]

I've been back in the UK for less than 24 hours and already I miss the boy so much I can hardly stand it. I'm crying all the time and am torn between wanting to talk to him and feeling worse when I do. Phone calls to Ghana are expensive so I need to work out a way round that pretty quick. Knowing I'm not going to see him for months makes me feel sick and even though I'm exhausted, I can't sleep. I have never been less happy to be home in my entire life, I would give anything to be back in Accra.

[Mishty]

Sunday I went to a friends funeral. A beautiful life loving twenty five year old doll. I didn't get to see her on her birthday, but just now I found the card I got her.... I've been pretty strong for her family and husband, but now I'm just going to let it go and miss her, cry for her and remember all the crazy shit we did.

I miss you muchly Ashley Shay....

Fuckin' fo'real gur.

[imfree]

Sunday I went to a friends funeral. A beautiful life loving twenty five year old doll. I didn't get to see her on her birthday, but just now I found the card I got her.... I've been pretty strong for her family and husband, but now I'm just going to let it go and miss her, cry for her and remember all the crazy shit we did.

I miss you muchly Ashley Shay....

Fuckin' fo'real gur.

You have my condolences, Neighbor.

[joey86]

BORDOM :(, need to find something fun to do tonight hehe

[Blackhawk2293]

Sunday I went to a friends funeral. A beautiful life loving twenty five year old doll. I didn't get to see her on her birthday, but just now I found the card I got her.... I've been pretty strong for her family and husband, but now I'm just going to let it go and miss her, cry for her and remember all the crazy shit we did.

I miss you muchly Ashley Shay....

Fuckin' fo'real gur.

Condolences to you Mishty, I recently had a death in the family (my cousin just lost her husband... and she's due to have a baby in about 3 weeks) as well and since I am in Venezuela right now there's not much I can do for my cousin back in Australia and neither can my parents because they're in Europe. But I guess it is lucky that we do have a lot of family down there so she'll get the support she needs.

[Lovelyone]

It's been one year today, since my mother passed on. It's been a very emotional day for me.

[kaylaisamachine]

I'm sad that I'm not enjoying fireworks on th fourth of July and instead of that, I'm couped up in a small apartment with my ex boyfriend.

[cinnamongirlky]

Being alone today...on my birthday.

[HeavyDuty24]

Being alone today...on my birthday.


sorry about that.:(

[cinnamongirlky]

sorry about that.:(

It's just life, I guess. I just wish THAT part of it would get better. I'm just tired of bein' alone, ya know? :(

[imfree]

Being alone today...on my birthday.

You're in DimmerLand, so you're with like-minded people. I fully empathize with you, as I spend a lot of time alone, myself. By faith and listening to rockin' music, I can feel that I'm Never Alone (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x8QubLxJI54), however.

[HeavyDuty24]

It's just life, I guess. I just wish THAT part of it would get better. I'm just tired of bein' alone, ya know? :(


i COMPLETELY agree with you on that one.im so tired of being along too,i have been alone for a very long time.im tired of it as well,i really sympathize with you on that one. :(

[VeronicaVaughn]

my computer is falling apart and its really worrying me that I won't have the money for a new one before it officially dies.

[cinnamongirlky]

You're in DimmerLand, so you're with like-minded people. I fully empathize with you, as I spend a lot of time alone, myself. By faith and listening to rockin' music, I can feel that I'm Never Alone (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x8QubLxJI54), however.

That was a GREAT song....Made me tear up a little, but a great song haha! Thank you!! ;)

[spiritangel]

having a head that would like to implode

[imfree]

That was a GREAT song....Made me tear up a little, but a great song haha! Thank you!! ;)

I'm with ya' on that. I could probably nail most of the notes if I tried to sing it, but tears would fall, as it is a very intense, heart-wrenching song.

[snuggletiger]

The Caylee Anthony story. Even with the trial over, we are still at square one trying to find who was low enough to kill a 2 year old kid.

[disconnectedsmile]

knowing that he's still in her life in any way.
knowing i'm 100% hers, but she's not 100% mine.

[snuggletiger]

My friend's father passed away. and I don't have any magical or inspirational words nor any comical shenanigans to say to help her feel better.

[CastingPearls]

everything

[Saoirse]

Ya know, its been a year (on the 4th actually) since I madly attempted to kill myself. The physical wounds have healed but I'm still hurting. I get treated like a doormat by the people closest to me and I know they don't mean it, but it still happens. Why do I try so hard? Why do I drop everything I'm doing just to please others? And why do I get bitched at when I can't do something?

The day started off just grand with a new friend telling me I'm a slut? He can flirt with me, tell me sexy things, but the moment I respond, he says I shouldn't be so easy.

Work is hell, with my boss and her sister constantly fighting, none of my equipment works right (but I just found out I'm getting brand new clippers! Yay!!) And lately every dog I work on has issues with behavior.

My good friend wants me to take his dog for a few days, even though its his damn dog and he rarely sees the poor thing anyway (the dog belonmgs to him and another friend who keeps the dog at his place, but he's going away for the weekend and needs my friend to take him) so why does he want me to take the dog? Because he and his gf are having "issues"and he's trying to save their relationship. Big fucking deal. I'm not driving a half hour there and then back tonight because you can't handle a dog and a girl.

My friends tease me for being 25 and still living at home, and it really used to bother me. But you know what? My home is my home. My parents are amazing, drama free and I live in my own paradise. So fuck you!

[CleverBomb]

Someone thought messing with my bikes would be amusing.
I don't mind my scooter's kill-switch and high beams being flipped to the wrong positions -- big deal. What upset me was that they turned on the fuel valve on my old motorcycle. Gas ran into the carbs, down the intakes, into the cylinders and past the piston rings,and into the crankcase.
Now I need to change the oil before I start it again.

I'm sad because now I don't trust that bike to be left in my parking spot, and will likely need to sell it (if only to replace it with something more modern and tamper-resistant).

-Rusty

[mel]

I am sending BIG HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS to those who need one!!

[HeavyDuty24]

i wouldn't say sad persay,but alittle dissapointed.i REALLY thought i was going to meet my lady freind today,we have came SO close to meeting but we never have yet,even after knowing each other for awhile.well we came the closest today that we ever have but it still didn't happen because,like always,something comes up EVERY single time.

[Blackhawk2293]

In the three months that I have been in Venezuela, 2 members of my family have died. One was 32 years of age (the husband of my cousin) and the other was 92 (my grand uncle, who was the closest thing I had to a grandfather since both of mine died before I was born)! I'm due to go back to Australia in one week's time and I'll be arriving bang in the middle of the 31 day mourning period for both of them (the 31 days is a Hindu thing, day 31 is when the spread the ashes across the sea).

I guess I am sad because I will miss them and I know it will be hard on the family that they are gone!

[disconnectedsmile]

he needs to be out of her life already.
she loves me, but she's not with me.
she doesn't believe me.
i'm not lying this time.

[Surlysomething]

In the three months that I have been in Venezuela, 2 members of my family have died. One was 32 years of age (the husband of my cousin) and the other was 92 (my grand uncle, who was the closest thing I had to a grandfather since both of mine died before I was born)! I'm due to go back to Australia in one week's time and I'll be arriving bang in the middle of the 31 day mourning period for both of them (the 31 days is a Hindu thing, day 31 is when the spread the ashes across the sea).

I guess I am sad because I will miss them and I know it will be hard on the family that they are gone!

Condolences. *hug*

[Blackhawk2293]

Condolences. *hug*

Thanks very much!

[PastaRunner]

How some job openings that I'm applying to seem to have hidden requirements beyond the listed requirements. And that I only discover this after wasting two hours of my time and energy talking with them.

I could've used those two hours applying for another position.

And job recruiters whose accent is so thick that I can't understand a word they're saying. They'll leave me voice mail and I can't understand it, so I'll spend my time applying for another job instead of calling them back.

[CAMellie]

Missing my momma extra bunches today. :(

[disconnectedsmile]

i'm consistently accused of doing things i'm not even doing, yet my accuser is doing those same things.
and when i try to say anything about it, i'm the one who gets chastised.

i keep saying the wrong thing, because i don't know how to choose my words, and i feel stupid.

[mimosa]

Misunderstandings make me sad. The only thing you can do is let people go even if you love them very much. :(

[Mishty]

My Mama took in four, new born puppies to raise because the mother had died, and because I've been house sitting and taking care of someone else animals all week, two of the puppies died. She just called, and said she wasn't upset, but I could hear it in her voice. :(

[ButlerGirl09]

My grandmother's potassium level plummeted yesterday and she fell in her kitchen. Now she's in a coma and the doctors are saying it would take a miracle. My heart hurts so much right now... Seeing as I'm her only granddaughter I always pictured how happy she'd be on my wedding day. Ughhh this is awful :(

[imfree]

My grandmother's potassium level plummeted yesterday and she fell in her kitchen. Now she's in a coma and the doctors are saying it would take a miracle. My heart hurts so much right now... Seeing as I'm her only granddaughter I always pictured how happy she'd be on my wedding day. Ughhh this is awful :(

You and your Grandmother have my healing wishes and prayers.

[MisticalMisty]

My grandmother's potassium level plummeted yesterday and she fell in her kitchen. Now she's in a coma and the doctors are saying it would take a miracle. My heart hurts so much right now... Seeing as I'm her only granddaughter I always pictured how happy she'd be on my wedding day. Ughhh this is awful :(

I'm so sorry Madison. I hope you get your miracle!

[CastingPearls]

My grandmother's potassium level plummeted yesterday and she fell in her kitchen. Now she's in a coma and the doctors are saying it would take a miracle. My heart hurts so much right now... Seeing as I'm her only granddaughter I always pictured how happy she'd be on my wedding day. Ughhh this is awful :(
Oh Madison.....hugs and positive vibes and prayers being sent your Grandmother's way and yours too.

[kaylaisamachine]

Loneliness and no one to converse with.

[kaylaisamachine]

My grandmother's potassium level plummeted yesterday and she fell in her kitchen. Now she's in a coma and the doctors are saying it would take a miracle. My heart hurts so much right now... Seeing as I'm her only granddaughter I always pictured how happy she'd be on my wedding day. Ughhh this is awful :(

Stay strong and believe in her. My prayers are with you and your family.

[Lamia]

I talked to Tyler for 20 minutes on the phone. His memory is pretty bad which is normal for having sustained such enormous head trauma that the neurosurgeon said he would be a vegetable the rest of his life, but his speech is just fine and his ability to form a sentence is just fine.

I am sad because his mom is freaking psycho. She is really messing with his mind. He wants to see his wife, my neice so bad. Nickie went up and visited him and wheeled him outside to listen to her subs and she said he was rapping along with some of the songs and he laughed so hard. The nurses told Nickie he hadn't smiled that much since he woke up. \

Nickie just wants to be friends, but his mom is convinced she is trying to get back together with him so demanded that Tyler choose between them and that if he ever saw his wife again she would never talk to him again...

really??? Your son has not only survived, but is flourishing and it's a huge miracle and your crapping all over it with your petty bullshit.

Tyler had friended us all on facebook and we were talking to him and his mom deleted us all. She has huge pictures of some girl blown up all over his room and keeps telling him that's his girlfriend...a girl who is in a relationship with another guy.

It's all like some reality TV bullshit drama. She screamed at Tyler "'I've been here with you through all of this and I didn't have to be!? Really? You're his mother that's what your supposed to do. :doh:

[kaylaisamachine]

The prejudice of people against homosexuals.

[Gingembre]

I talked to Tyler for 20 minutes on the phone. His memory is pretty bad which is normal for having sustained such enormous head trauma that the neurosurgeon said he would be a vegetable the rest of his life, but his speech is just fine and his ability to form a sentence is just fine.

I am sad because his mom is freaking psycho. She is really messing with his mind. He wants to see his wife, my neice so bad. Nickie went up and visited him and wheeled him outside to listen to her subs and she said he was rapping along with some of the songs and he laughed so hard. The nurses told Nickie he hadn't smiled that much since he woke up. \

Nickie just wants to be friends, but his mom is convinced she is trying to get back together with him so demanded that Tyler choose between them and that if he ever saw his wife again she would never talk to him again...

really??? Your son has not only survived, but is flourishing and it's a huge miracle and your crapping all over it with your petty bullshit.

Tyler had friended us all on facebook and we were talking to him and his mom deleted us all. She has huge pictures of some girl blown up all over his room and keeps telling him that's his girlfriend...a girl who is in a relationship with another guy.

It's all like some reality TV bullshit drama. She screamed at Tyler "'I've been here with you through all of this and I didn't have to be!? Really? You're his mother that's what your supposed to do. :doh:

This makes me really sad. It's so f*cked up.

[Gspoon]

Well, deaths do come in threes.

My girlfriends dog, my uncle, and now her uncle as well. It has been a very unkind three weeks for us. I'd get into further detail, but I'd rather just state what's making me feel a bit better...

I recently bought a new album from the Devin Townsend Project, normally he makes really fast metal albums, but this one is the polar opposite. It's soft tones and mellow sounds make me want to cry at times, and just release a lot of pent up emotion which would otherwise just keep accumulating. It helps a lot.

[HottiMegan]

I'm not sure if it's sadness or nerves or what. Tomorrow Max goes under the knife for the 17th time. I get sad thinking about all he's gone through in 8 years of life. It's not over yet either. I feel the urge to run away from taking him down to Sacramento tomorrow.

[Sweetie]

I screwed my checking account up again and am overdrawn by $3.25...just enough to cost me a $35 fee. :(

[SMA413]

So I'm working at this family camp retreat for foster/adoptive families this weekend. One of the grandmothers who adopted her 4 grandkids was telling me about her 5 year battle to get custody and all of the awful things that the kids went through- physical and sexual abuse, neglect, all sorts of awfulness. The oldest daughter was so starved and malnourished when she first came to her grandmother's house. The grandmother just started crying when she saw the girl's ribs sticking out. The little girl told her grandmother, "It's alright, Granny. I gave my cheese and water to my brothers and sister because I knew I had to go to Heaven first."

I lost it then.

These kids are such an amazing, resilient group and it just breaks my heart to know that they've gone through so much and yet can still be so filled with sunshine and love. It breaks my heart to see all this love and pain mixed together.

[CAMellie]

What is making me sad right now? The sudden realization that a lot of friendships have fallen to the wayside. Some for good reason and some for lack of 'tending' on one, or both, sides. To all my friends on here (yes I have them and they know who they are): You are awesome and I'm glad to know you!

[kaylaisamachine]

I didn't get the place I wanted. They gave the room to someone else. Now I get to be stressed because I have 3 weeks left to find a place to stay until I'm supposed to move. What am I going to do? Anyone living in San Francisco near SFSU and want to give me a place to stay? I'll pay rent.

[TexasTrouble]

Does the school have a housing office that could help you out? It's probably too late for dorms, but they could have some ideas about where to look. Also, does the school or the academic department you're majoring in have a facebook page? Our school does, and sometimes students put up notices for roommates. I'm sorry the ideas aren't better. I hope you get something great soon!

[J34]

There is a mosquito that has been lurking in my bedroom this past week, and when I am asleep he feasts on my resting body. Its like it hides behind furniture, waiting for the cover of darkness like a predator for its next meal. I have been targeted a dozen times, looks like it comes back for 2nds


:(

[BigBeautifulMe]

For whatever it's worth, a mosquito's life cycle is generally about two weeks, so if it is indeed the same mosquito you shouldn't have to deal with it much longer. lol

[J34]

For whatever it's worth, a mosquito's life cycle is generally about two weeks, so if it is indeed the same mosquito you shouldn't have to deal with it much longer. lol

Thanks for the optimism.

Though I did get a remedy from my sister who has been battling the mosquitoes herself, and apparently nail polish helps stop the itch. Though it took a while rummaging through some of her drawers to find the "clear" color that will not make it stand out.

[hiddenexposure]

Loneliness and no one to converse with.

This and also seeing a guy I have been denying feelings for, for years :doh: with a gal at a concert and looking over at the wrong time to see them kissing.:(

[SMA413]

The topic #reasonstobeatyourgirlfriend is trending on Twitter. That's sad.

[Kenster102.5]

The topic #reasonstobeatyourgirlfriend is trending on Twitter. That's sad.

See that is why Twitter can be bad, since people can just hide behind it and put a hash tag #reasonstobeatyourgirlfriend.

All you drunkards and beaters and users, go get help professionally if you can, don't hide behind Twitter.

What a sad world it is.

[fat9276]

missing him so very very much :(

[one2one]

I went to the funeral today of a close family friend. I'd known him for 40 years, and I'm taking this harder than I expected. 88 years is a life well lived and his certainly was. I should be happy that he's free to move on to the next one, and I am, but I'm grieving.

[Gingembre]

missing him so very very much :(

Ditto this. I feel all empty inside.

((hugs))

[Ola]

A friend was supposed to come over to my place today for a drunken night of awesome, but he had to reschedule to Friday, meaning I am now insufferably bored. :( Tragic, I know! xD On a positive note though, it all gave me an excuse to tell him "fine, but then you owe me a bottle of Jagermeister!" so it all evens out in the end I suppose. :D

[ButlerGirl09]

missing him so very very much :(

Ditto this. I feel all empty inside.

((hugs))

I'm right there with you ladies! We should form a club!

<hugs to you both>

[Linda]

The craziness of my family. They are draining.

[fat9276]

Ditto this. I feel all empty inside.

((hugs))

I'm right there with you ladies! We should form a club!

<hugs to you both>



Hugs back to you both! :)

[penguin]

I feel like things are running together to create stress and sadness. I know they're not, and by themselves they're not too big to handle. I guess I'm having a hormonal dip too. Just having it all come together at once makes it feel worse than it is.

[mybluice]

That my 19 year old daughter chooses to continue trying to be with someone who treats her like shit, ignores her, makes her feel worthless, inadequate, stupid.....she would rather be with him than alone. I've tried talking to her, but can't get through to her. :(

[littlefairywren]

missing him so very very much :(

Soft hugs, darling B.

[Lovelyone]

Thinking about some friends who are no longer part of my life.

[hrd]

Thousands upon thousands of people are dying because of the famine in Somalia, and their leaders still seem more concerned with maintaining power rather than getting everyone fed.

[rellis10]

I have a craving for many cuddles :(

[hrd]

London (http://maps.google.co.uk/maps/ms?msid=207192798388318292131.0004aa01af6748773e8f 7&msa=0&ie=UTF8&ll=51.536086,-0.056305&spn=0.39294,0.630341&z=10&source=embed). I hope those of you in town are safe and well.

[snuggletiger]

that my friend was only in town for a short time :(

[Surlysomething]

My very cliquey family.

I'm so tired of it.

Every once in awhile I feel like i'm in the loop, then everything starts all over again and you start not being included.


It makes me want to move far, far away.

[HottiMegan]

My very cliquey family.

I'm so tired of it.

Every once in awhile I feel like i'm in the loop, then everything starts all over again and you start not being included.


It makes me want to move far, far away.

My in laws are like that. Just because we live 200 miles away doesn't mean we want to be excluded from our niece's milestones. We have never been invited to her dance recitals or for the last few years, a birthday party. It hurts my husband a lot not to be let in on that kind of stuff. It's not because of animosity either, they just exclude us do to distance.

[Surlysomething]

My in laws are like that. Just because we live 200 miles away doesn't mean we want to be excluded from our niece's milestones. We have never been invited to her dance recitals or for the last few years, a birthday party. It hurts my husband a lot not to be let in on that kind of stuff. It's not because of animosity either, they just exclude us do to distance.


There's not a lot to do about it either because ultimately I get blamed or they lose it. It's all ok for them to do what they want, but you better not bring it up. :rolleyes:

[Linda]

The balance in my bank account is quite disturbing.

[BigBeautifulMe]

The balance in my bank account is quite disturbing.

Tried to rep you to say "Boy do I empathize!" but my rep account is just as empty, LOL. :D

[Fox]

My bestie is in big trouble. :(

[Your Plump Princess]

I found out via my friends facebook that he died earlier today.. He was the first friend I met here at Dims, and was one hell of a guy. :(

[imfree]

I found out via my friends facebook that he died earlier today.. He was the first friend I met here at Dims, and was one hell of a guy. :(

You have my condolences and wishes for comfort, my friend.

[ManBeef]

I've been trying all day to splice a usb cable to my old universal dance mat so that I can use it on my 360 but am failing miserably. The wire colors are not the same so its hard to tell what goes where. I cant figure it out dammit && I wanna play Dance Dance

[imfree]

I've been trying all day to splice a usb cable to my old universal dance mat so that I can use it on my 360 but am failing miserably. The wire colors are not the same so its hard to tell what goes where. I cant figure it out dammit && I wanna play Dance Dance

Don't "they" have adapters for that?:confused:

[Your Plump Princess]

You have my condolences and wishes for comfort, my friend.
Thank you, It's still hard to believe. I keep looking at his last Status on Facebook. Last night when I first heard, I looked, and it was like 15 hours ago.. I think that's what make it hardest, is that it was so sudden and unexpected..

[SMA413]

Thank you, It's still hard to believe. I keep looking at his last Status on Facebook. Last night when I first heard, I looked, and it was like 15 hours ago.. I think that's what make it hardest, is that it was so sudden and unexpected..

You said you met him here on Dims. Who was it?

[snuggletiger]

Sorry about you losing your friend YPP.

[Your Plump Princess]

You said you met him here on Dims. Who was it?
Adam Lavasseur, Lavasse (http://www.dimensionsmagazine.com/forums/member.php?u=33148) here on Dims.

[CastingPearls]

I found out via my friends facebook that he died earlier today.. He was the first friend I met here at Dims, and was one hell of a guy. :(
It's so odd...I saw a post he made the other day and chuckled at something on his profile and now he's gone just like that. I'm so sorry, Megan. Very sorry.

[Your Plump Princess]

Thank you, he was almost always kiddin' around. I think it's what first made me want to be his friend, and from what I've read, it's one of the things that made him quite popular with people.

[BigBeautifulMe]

Thank you, he was almost always kiddin' around. I think it's what first made me want to be his friend, and from what I've read, it's one of the things that made him quite popular with people.

I'm so sorry for your loss, honey. :( It seems like it happened so fast, and he was so young. Was he sick? :(

[ManBeef]

Don't "they" have adapters for that?:confused:

I've heard from a few people that the xbox to xbox360 adapters aren't very good. Unless I
I can find one legit because they were getting them from China. I just wanted to see if I had the skill to get it to work. I failed. I'm also thinking that the wire colors for positive/negative are not the usual red && green. Meaning that they have them all mixed up. Microsoft does not like people "fixing" problems over buying solutions.

[imfree]

I've heard from a few people that the xbox to xbox360 adapters aren't very good. Unless I
I can find one legit because they were getting them from China. I just wanted to see if I had the skill to get it to work. I failed. I'm also thinking that the wire colors for positive/negative are not the usual red && green. Meaning that they have them all mixed up. Microsoft does not like people "fixing" problems over buying solutions.

Yessir, Mr Beef, your MS=Spend Rep is in your box! Moneygrabbin'* Microsoft has kept me pissed for years!

*Hard drive fillin', resource wastin', add-on hungry bastards that they are!

They'll sell you the world's best power saw for $5, but you need a different type of blade for each type of task and blades start out at $250!

[Your Plump Princess]

I'm so sorry for your loss, honey. :( It seems like it happened so fast, and he was so young. Was he sick? :(
According to an article I found online, he drifted into on-coming traffic and hit a semi head-on. I think the sudden shock and loss is what's making it so difficult, so many unanswered questions like why he drifted, etc. He was only 27, it just shouldn't have happened, and not that way..

[BigBeautifulMe]

I know someone else that happened to. The person had untreated sleep apnea. I'm so sorry for his families' loss, and that of his friends. This has to be so hard. :(

[Mathias]

I found out that the boy friend of an old friend of mine from high school passed away. I'm sad because it's believed to be drug related, and mad because she has a four year old boy. We had all thought they both had gotten clean for his sake, but apparently gotten back intro drugs again. I'm just hoping she'll be alright. It's just horrible no matter how you look at it. :really sad:

[Your Plump Princess]

I found out that the boy friend of an old friend of mine from high school passed away. I'm sad because it's believed to be drug related, and mad because she has a four year old boy. We had all thought they both had gotten clean for his sake, but apparently gotten back intro drugs again. I'm just hoping she'll be alright. It's just horrible no matter how you look at it. :really sad:
That's awful, I hope she doesn't relapse into that lifestyle again. :(

[ManBeef]

Yessir, Mr Beef, your MS=Spend Rep is in your box! Moneygrabbin'* Microsoft has kept me pissed for years!

*Hard drive fillin', resource wastin', add-on hungry bastards that they are!

They'll sell you the world's best power saw for $5, but you need a different type of blade for each type of task and blades start out at $250!

My goal is to figure it out. I have to.

[Kibeth]

Some jerk stood me up for dinner. it wasn't even a date. rude.

[HottiMegan]

I'm sad because I wish i lived closer to Michigan. I have a cousin who i'd love to be near and comfort while she's going through a really tough time. I actually have two cousins from each side of my family there i'd like to be there for.

[CastingPearls]

I've made the decision to bring my cat Wonton to my father's house because I don't feel she will be safe here for long. I will follow in a few weeks but I'll miss her so much while she's away because she's my little baby and I need her.

[Jack Secret]

I've been paralyzed for a while now so I'm fairly used to being the way I am. Today, more than usual, I wish I was able bodied. I usually don't think about it anymore. Of course I have "my days"… And this is certainly one of them.

[idontspeakespn]

My father died two years ago yesterday.

I had a really nice day yesterday, and was quite surprised when I didn't fall apart at work, but it was okay. Sure I remembered him, constantly, but it wasn't the crushing grief I felt last year.

So it was even more of a shock when I woke up this morning feeling like he had died YESTERDAY.

I'm sad because the only man that's ever loved me as ME is gone, and because the man I love-- whom I could really use a boat-load of tactile reassurance from--can no longer speak to me, or hold me, when I need him the most. I think that makes today worse. Is because there is no one to can soothe my grief. And the one person I want to soothe my grief, is the one who had given me a large amount of NEW grief to process.

What. The. Fuck. :(

[BigBeautifulMe]

I've made the decision to bring my cat Wonton to my father's house because I don't feel she will be safe here for long. I will follow in a few weeks but I'll miss her so much while she's away because she's my little baby and I need her.

I know how much you love that kitty, and how hard this will be for you, but I think that's a wise decision. So much love coming your way, honey. Three weeks, and you and Miss Won will both be loving on each other like you were never apart. :)

[penguin]

Not getting enough sleep. A resurgence of insomnia mixed with my daughter waking up at ridiculous hours of the morning means I'm running low. When this goes on for a while it brings out depressive tendencies, so this morning I'm feeling quite low and sad.

[CleverBomb]

HP is shutting down their phone/tablet operations.
Which is the end of what used to be Palm, Inc.

-Rusty
Palm Vx, Palm i705, Palm T/TX, Garmin iQue 3200, Treo 90, Treo 270, Treo 600, Treo 680.

[lovelylady78]

My bed seems awfully empty and lonely tonight without him.

[violetviolets]

I've yet to be inspired enough to do anything with my skills in graphic design...

[DeniseW]

Nick Ashford passed away, he was a great songwriter and singer and him and his wife Valerie Simpson were a great team....he'll be missed

[Surlysomething]

Nick Ashford passed away, he was a great songwriter and singer and him and his wife Valerie Simpson were a great team....he'll be missed


A huge loss for the R&B scene. What a talent.

RIP

[mel]

...missing...

[penguin]

Love songs.

[SMA413]

I started the process of severing ties with someone I should have cut out of my life like a tumor months ago.


It makes me feel like I'm losing a part of my life but I know it has to be done for me to move forward.

[TwilightStarr]

My knee is hurting really bad from walking around the state fair today and I think I am getting sick :(

[Lamia]

I started the process of severing ties with someone I should have cut out of my life like a tumor months ago.


It makes me feel like I'm losing a part of my life but I know it has to be done for me to move forward.

I've been there. It's sucks, but it is worth it to get out of a diseased relationship.

[kaylaisamachine]

That I am always busy with school and other things that I rarely get on Dims and post anymore. :c

[Mishty]

VMA's is making me sad talking about Amy Winehouse.
Breaks my heart.

[*Goofy*Girl*]

VMA's is making me sad talking about Amy Winehouse.
Breaks my heart.

That makes me sad too. It's a shame to see someone so gifted & talented go away. :(

[Fuzzy]

My grandmother passed away today. She was 97.
July 9, 1914 - Aug 28, 2011.

She had fallen recently and broken a hip. She made a quick recovery, but couldn't walk. She slipped away this morning, shortly before my father came by to visit.

[Rathkhan]

My grandmother passed away today. She was 97.
July 9, 1914 - Aug 28, 2011.

She had fallen recently and broken a hip. She made a quick recovery, but couldn't walk. She slipped away this morning, shortly before my father came by to visit.

=\ I am sorry for your loss

[shinyapple]

My grandmother passed away today. She was 97.
July 9, 1914 - Aug 28, 2011.

She had fallen recently and broken a hip. She made a quick recovery, but couldn't walk. She slipped away this morning, shortly before my father came by to visit.

So sorry for your loss, Fuzzy. It's never easy to let them go, even under the best of circumstances.

[Surlysomething]

My grandmother passed away today. She was 97.
July 9, 1914 - Aug 28, 2011.

She had fallen recently and broken a hip. She made a quick recovery, but couldn't walk. She slipped away this morning, shortly before my father came by to visit.

Sorry for your loss, Fuzzy. She must have seen a lot in her very long life.

Take care

[tonynyc]

My grandmother passed away today. She was 97.
July 9, 1914 - Aug 28, 2011.

She had fallen recently and broken a hip. She made a quick recovery, but couldn't walk. She slipped away this morning, shortly before my father came by to visit.

Sorry for your loss Fuzzy

[CleverBomb]

My grandmother passed away today. She was 97.
July 9, 1914 - Aug 28, 2011.

She had fallen recently and broken a hip. She made a quick recovery, but couldn't walk. She slipped away this morning, shortly before my father came by to visit.
I'm terribly sorry for your tragic loss.

-Rusty

[imfree]

You have my condolences, comforting wishes, and prayers. Grandparents are amazing people.

[kaylaisamachine]

I just wish I could help.. I care too much. I'm over emotional and I wish I could be there for the people I love so they could see how much I care.

[littlefairywren]

My grandmother passed away today. She was 97.
July 9, 1914 - Aug 28, 2011.

She had fallen recently and broken a hip. She made a quick recovery, but couldn't walk. She slipped away this morning, shortly before my father came by to visit.

I am so sorry for your loss, Fuzzy.

[Mathias]

I don't know how else I can say this but, I'm lonely.

[Fuzzy]

Thanks to everybody...

At my grandmother's birthday party in July, we were asking her questions about things she could remember. (Luckily, no alzheimer's.. sharp as a tack)

Memories such as collecting raspberries all day in rural Idaho to sell for 10c a bottle. Being the 11th child of 13. Her transportation into town from the family farm was a horse named Moonie.

[SarahLaughsAlot]

that people with the most love to give have no one to give it to, and it saddens me that i'm one of them</3

[imfree]

that people with the most love to give have no one to give it to, and it saddens me that i'm one of them</3

We're the ones who comfort others and help them laugh, then cry in the alone of our time (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WEQzX4AO4X4).

You're not alone. I wish you comfort and peace.

[*Goofy*Girl*]

This thread. :(

[Diana_Prince245]

One of these days I'm going to learn to not put my best posts on threads that I know will get deleted.

[ThikJerseyChik]

I started the process of severing ties with someone I should have cut out of my life like a tumor months ago.


It makes me feel like I'm losing a part of my life but I know it has to be done for me to move forward.

Hi Samantha - been a long time.

I carry this with me; it has helped me take care of ME. Hope it helps you.

LIFE IS A THEATER

Invite Your Audience Carefully

Not everyone is healthy enough to have a front row seat in our lives.
There are some people in your life that need to be loved from a DISTANCE.
It's amazing what you can accomplish when you let go of, or at least
minimize your time with, draining, negative, incompatible,
not-going-anywhere relationships/friendships.
Observe the relationships around you. Pay attention.

Which ones lift and which ones lean?
Which ones encourage and which ones discourage?
Which ones are on a path of growth uphill and which ones are going downhill?
When you leave certain people do you feel better or feel worse?
Which ones always have drama or don't really understand, know or appreciate you?

The more you seek quality, respect, growth, peace of mind, love and truth around you...the easier it will become for you to decide who gets to sit in the front row and who should be moved to the balcony of Your Life.

"If you cannot change the people around you, CHANGE the people you are around."

Remember that the people we hang with will have an impact on both our lives and our income. And so we must be careful to choose the people we hang out with, as well as the information with which we feed our minds.
We should not share our dreams with negative people, Nor feed our dreams with negative thoughts.

It's your choice and your life..... It's up to you who and what you let in it......

[Heyyou]

I just heard Sting's "Every Breath You Take" with the stupid Snow Patrol song, in the same song.. DEFINITELY made me sad! And :mad: too.

:mad:

[HottiMegan]

It hurts my heart so bad to watch my little boy have to endure pain week after week. His surgery is STILL not healing properly. He has reactive tissue growth and needs its removal every week. He shakes in pain while they're working on him. He even screams during some of it. I just wish i could take all his hurt away. He's been through way too much in his short life. I hate that we have to go back again next week. I'm sooo booking a hotel room with a pool and hot tub for a treat as soon as he's done with all this crap. He's missed out on swimming most of the summer.

[1love_emily]

It sounds so trivial compared to everyone else's issues... but I just wish my boyfriend were here to make me feel like I'm worth something.

[SMA413]

It sounds so trivial compared to everyone else's issues... but I just wish my boyfriend were here to make me feel like I'm worth something.

You shouldn't have to rely on having a boyfriend to make you feel like you're worth something. That is trivial and that's what makes me sad today.

[Linda]

My three day holiday weekend is slowly shrinking because of the amount of work I have to get done for work. Boo!!

[CastingPearls]

It sounds so trivial compared to everyone else's issues... but I just wish my boyfriend were here to make me feel like I'm worth something.
You ARE worth a lot, all by yourself. Always.

[Lamia]

My best friend's mom passed away and her funeral was yesterday. She was such a wonderful lady.

I am ready for this year to be over.

Sept 2010 my mom's best friends passes from cancer
dec 2011 my step mom's twin sister passes from cancer
Jan 2011 my best friend's dad passes from cancer
Jan 2011 my cousin passed from cancer
April My grandma passes from heart failure
April my nephew in law has hideous wreck and almost dies, but is in recovery
June 2011 couisin passes from heart failure
Aug 2011 My best friend's mom passes from diabetes/heart failure

My step mom has lost 4 siblings and a nephew this year.

[Luv2BNaughty]

feeling invisible..

[Your Plump Princess]

I came to my moms house today and I saw the damage from yesterdays storms, and we did lose a lot of our beautiful old trees. There's going to be very little shade now, and mowing is going to be a biiiiiitch. :(

[penguin]

I was woken up in the middle of the night by two people arguing. I still don't know if it was an adult and child or two adults. It was horrific to listen to, as it sounded like they were being hit and things were being smashed. The victim was begging for them to listen and to stop and that they didn't do whatever it was the other person thought they did. What's worse is that I didn't know where they were. There's a large park right behind my house, and sound travels really well across it from the houses on the other side. I don't know if they were in the park or in one of the houses. I called the police anyway, because it needed to stop. I don't know if the police came and that's why it eventually stopped or what, but it was so horrible to hear. :(

[Angel]

...when a woman doesn't respect other women or their relationships.

(and thank you to the women who have noticed and have been supportive. thank you for being *real* friends)

[CastingPearls]

More anxiety than sadness. Still haven't received confirmation yet.

[littlefairywren]

...when a woman doesn't respect other women or their relationships.

(and thank you to the women who have noticed and have been supportive. thank you for being *real* friends)

Uh huh...those types of women need a slap upside the head to knock some sense into their noggins.

More anxiety than sadness. Still haven't received confirmation yet.

Sending wee hugs your way. You will get that confirmation soon, Lainey, and then you can start to breath easier.

[snuggletiger]

I was woken up in the middle of the night by two people arguing. I still don't know if it was an adult and child or two adults. It was horrific to listen to, as it sounded like they were being hit and things were being smashed. The victim was begging for them to listen and to stop and that they didn't do whatever it was the other person thought they did. What's worse is that I didn't know where they were. There's a large park right behind my house, and sound travels really well across it from the houses on the other side. I don't know if they were in the park or in one of the houses. I called the police anyway, because it needed to stop. I don't know if the police came and that's why it eventually stopped or what, but it was so horrible to hear. :(

Sorry you had to hear that :( That is very sad indeed. :(

[one2one]

I was woken up in the middle of the night by two people arguing. I still don't know if it was an adult and child or two adults. It was horrific to listen to, as it sounded like they were being hit and things were being smashed. The victim was begging for them to listen and to stop and that they didn't do whatever it was the other person thought they did. What's worse is that I didn't know where they were. There's a large park right behind my house, and sound travels really well across it from the houses on the other side. I don't know if they were in the park or in one of the houses. I called the police anyway, because it needed to stop. I don't know if the police came and that's why it eventually stopped or what, but it was so horrible to hear. :(

Edit: Never mind ... I'm just going to PM you instead.

[GentleSavage]

A few things are making me sad right now.

I just graduated, and as such I am now super far from a lot of my friends, and it sucks seeing them so rarely, or not at all.

Also I have no job, and no plans to go back to school for another year, so I am kind of stuck in some stupid limbo of absolute nothingness.

Generally I am just feeling really lonely. It wasn't so bad before, but this summer I've been on a few dates and nothing really panned out, and that kind of made it worse.

Oh well. At least Doctor Who is on tonight.

[*Goofy*Girl*]

My exhaustion. I don't even feel like going out tonight.

[rockhound225]

That my money is stretched so thin and there is still so much that has to be taken care of...

[joemurphy]

The closed mindedness and intolerance of ideas other than their own in a growing number of young people.

[s!gma]

I hate how Shy I am.
I drove downtown tonight to go to a party and i got there, paid for parking and then I just couldn't go.

I used to be the loudest guy who would introduce myself with arrogant confident bullcrap. Now I cant get myself to hang out with my friends, because all I do is worry.

It comes from the fact that I always feel like a burden on the people around me, family, friends, etc. whether or not its true I will restrict myself from calling or hanging out with my friends and cousins just because I think I'm a bad influence and I'll bring them down.

Its why I never approach anyone I don't already know. I assume every woman is tired of strangers walking up and striking a conversation, so I never do. Even if she smiles at me first I never act because I always have the itching feeling that I'm going to ruin your life.

Lonely and shy are a terrible combination.

My problems are so inconsequential compared to a lot of the things I am seeing, Sorry to even do this, this is even hard to write because I feel like I am pushing my problems off onto others, I just had to get this off my chest, I don't really have anyone I can talk to about this crap.

[Gingembre]

I hate how Shy I am.
I drove downtown tonight to go to a party and i got there, paid for parking and then I just couldn't go.

I used to be the loudest guy who would introduce myself with arrogant confident bullcrap. Now I cant get myself to hang out with my friends, because all I do is worry.

It comes from the fact that I always feel like a burden on the people around me, family, friends, etc. whether or not its true I will restrict myself from calling or hanging out with my friends and cousins just because I think I'm a bad influence and I'll bring them down.

Its why I never approach anyone I don't already know. I assume every woman is tired of strangers walking up and striking a conversation, so I never do. Even if she smiles at me first I never act because I always have the itching feeling that I'm going to ruin your life.

Lonely and shy are a terrible combination.

My problems are so inconsequential compared to a lot of the things I am seeing, Sorry to even do this, this is even hard to write because I feel like I am pushing my problems off onto others, I just had to get this off my chest, I don't really have anyone I can talk to about this crap.

((hugs)) This made me really sad to read, because I used to be a bit like this myself. Still am if I don't force myself to get out there and do things.

Please find someone to talk to about this? A friend? A therapist? I'm sure none of the negative things you think about yourself are true. What made you change from the overconfident guy you used to be?

[Hathor]

I'm sad and disheartened that I've fallen for a man who is incapable of giving me any sort of love and affection (kissing and hugging)....as those are my basic needs to feel like someone's girl.

[Heyyou]

I am scared, i cannot find my wallet. I had ~$90 cash and all the thing si need ot start my job today (ID and SS Card) in it. I am truly worried because i think i had it in my bathing suit yesterday while riding my bike for an hour.

Pray.... for...... me.......... im about to go through my room a thrd time.

Anything........ but.... this.. i will find it... i have to................................................ ...........

I even just retraced my track on the beach. The boardwalk stairs, too. Didnt see it................................................ .....................

[mimosa]

Just said a prayer for you. I hope you find your wallet.


I am scared, i cannot find my wallet. I had ~$90 cash and all the thing si need ot start my job today (ID and SS Card) in it. I am truly worried because i think i had it in my bathing suit yesterday while riding my bike for an hour.

Pray.... for...... me.......... im about to go through my room a thrd time.

Anything........ but.... this.. i will find it... i have to................................................ ...........

I even just retraced my track on the beach. The boardwalk stairs, too. Didnt see it................................................ .....................

[Heyyou]

Just said a prayer for you. I hope you find your wallet.

TY! With that, i will resume my search. :)

[mimosa]

Welcome. Go in faith, Heyyou. It will happen for you.

TY! With that, i will resume my search. :)

[snuggletiger]

I forgot my wallet too but know exactly where it is provided my house doesn't eat it.

[Heyyou]

I forgot my wallet too but know exactly where it is provided my house doesn't eat it.

Im starting to think the roaches got it. They have violated our understanding! lol

Im trying to take a break from looking for it like im the DEA right now (and i am good at flipping over couches like i am the DEA.) It will turn up. Its here. I feel its energy.

(Lets just put it this way: My job is in that wallet, since its ID and SS# card.)

IC im trying to relax, i will post when it turns up. It hasnt yet.

[snuggletiger]

Try going through the pockets of the clothes you last wore when you had the wallet. 9/10 times it'll be there

[mimosa]

I work very hard at staying positive. But there are times when I just feel plain awful like right now. My soon to be ex husband is just terrible and disrespectful. There is so much I can say about him, but I don't have the energy. I want to feel whole again. I am trying to put the pieces of my life back together. It's a challenge. Please say a prayer for me. xoxoxo:(

[imfree]

I work very hard at staying positive. But there are times when I just feel plain awful like right now. My soon to be ex husband is just terrible and disrespectful. There is so much I can say about him, but I don't have the energy. I want to feel whole again. I am trying to put the pieces of my life back together. It's a challenge. Please say a prayer for me. xoxoxo:(

I'm not alone in sending you my best thoughts, wishes, and prayers for comfort and peace. May the Lord lift you up.

[imfree]

Some records were never meant to be broken. A prime example is this irreplaceable 78 RPM, 4 Record Set of Christmas Songs by Mario Lanza, one of the top 5 greatest tenors of all time, that was destroyed in shipment to me. 78's are made of shellac, as shellac pre-dates vinyl and is very brittle:(

[mimosa]

I'm not alone in sending you my best thoughts, wishes, and prayers for comfort and peace. May the Lord lift you up.

Thanks, imfree. You're the best. God bless you. :)

[moore2me]

Some records were never meant to be broken. A prime example is this irreplaceable 78 RPM, 4 Record Set of Christmas Songs by Mario Lanza, one of the top 5 greatest tenors of all time, that was destroyed in shipment to me. 78's are made of shellac, as shellac pre-dates vinyl and is very brittle:(

Edgar,
I agree with you Mario Lanza has the voice of an angel. He is one of my favorite male singers. I feel your pain. To help console you, person you can retrieve a few valuable digital recording from some of the websites I collected for you. (You might also ask if anyone has a copy of the lost collection of Christmas albums.)

http://www.mariolanzatenor.com/

http://historyofthetenor.com/page.php?87

http://www.mario-lanza-institute.org/

http://www.operaclubdeparis-mariolanza.fr/

http://www.bmls.co.uk/

[imfree]

Edgar,
I agree with you Mario Lanza has the voice of an angel. He is one of my favorite male singers. I feel your pain. To help console you, person you can retrieve a few valuable digital recording from some of the websites I collected for you. (You might also ask if anyone has a copy of the lost collection of Christmas albums.)

http://www.mariolanzatenor.com/

http://historyofthetenor.com/page.php?87

http://www.mario-lanza-institute.org/

http://www.operaclubdeparis-mariolanza.fr/

http://www.bmls.co.uk/

Thanks, M2M! I won't have too much trouble getting over the loss of those records, as the seller has already fully refunded and your links are helpful, too. I'm already working on another 78 to play on my Deccollaro in the upcoming DimmerLand Christmas video. Things are looking up for the project.

[Shosh]

My cousin's battle with breast cancer. She just had a bi lateral mastectomy.
She is only 45 years old.:(

[Aust99]

My Mum had to take our dog to be put down today.... she was 16 years old and it was her time to go. She had a great life but it's always horrible when you lose a dear pet....
97122

[spiritangel]

My cousin's battle with breast cancer. She just had a bi lateral mastectomy.
She is only 45 years old.:(

so so very sorry to hear this shosh big squishy hugs.

My Mum had to take our dog to be put down today.... she was 16 years old and it was her time to go. She had a great life but it's always horrible when you lose a dear pet....
97122

aww so sorry to hear about losing a family member ( pets count as that in my books) lots of hugs


mine feels kinda selfish now just seeing the pic I took of him thats his profile pic pop up on my friends list or on fb.

[Heyyou]

That some people just dont get it.

[Kamily]

Lots of stuff. Way too much to mention and nobody wants to hear me moan and bitch anyways. :rolleyes:

Im waiting on the weekend to get here so I can drown all of my sorrow and frustration in a pitcher or two of alcohol. Yes I realize it doesnt help matters, but at least I can get them off my mind for a couple hours. :(

[Lovelyone]

My cousin's battle with breast cancer. She just had a bi lateral mastectomy.
She is only 45 years old.:(

I totally empathize with this. My sister is almost 43 and is in her second set of radiation treatments. The doctors have asked her to make a decision about a mastectomy before this set of treatments is over. She can have one breast removed with a prosthesis, one removed with reconstruction surgery or a bi-lateral with reconstruction (which is what her doctors are suggesting). What a hard decision to make. On top of this she is having kidney failure. I pray for your cousin and my sister.

[moore2me]

My cousin's battle with breast cancer. She just had a bi lateral mastectomy.
She is only 45 years old.:(

Dear Shosh, Yes, it is very sad when a young woman suffers from breast cancer. Plus, her battle is just starting too. I am sure you will be there to help and give her a shoulder to lean on. Is she a blood relative? If so, you may also be at greater risk. (See below.)

I totally empathize with this. My sister is almost 43 and is in her second set of radiation treatments. The doctors have asked her to make a decision about a mastectomy before this set of treatments is over. She can have one breast removed with a prosthesis, one removed with reconstruction surgery or a bi-lateral with reconstruction (which is what her doctors are suggesting). What a hard decision to make. On top of this she is having kidney failure. I pray for your cousin and my sister.

Lovelyone, I am also sorry to hear of your sister's cancer and kidney failure. Having to decide about what kind of breast surgery has got to be a horrible decision for a woman in her 40's. Perhaps she is talking to some women in a support group that have been thru similar cancers and therapies. Plus, you should also have yourself checked closely because you are in a high risk category now that a sister has developed bilateral breast cancer early in life.
The kidney failure could also be a "fly in the ointment" and may change the doctor's recommendation if she has to go on full dialysis or a kidney transplant list.



Lots of stuff. Way too much to mention and nobody wants to hear me moan and bitch anyways. :rolleyes:

Im waiting on the weekend to get here so I can drown all of my sorrow and frustration in a pitcher or two of alcohol. Yes I realize it doesnt help matters, but at least I can get them off my mind for a couple hours. :(
I hate to be a wet blanket, but since I am writing about breast cancer, the Mayo Clinic is recommending an average of no more than one or so alcohol drink a day for women to reduce the risk of breast cancer. I normally would nit pick on anyone’s weekend party, but a pitcher or two of alcohol would equal about how many glasses? 5 or 6?

(Now if you really meant a pitcher or two of straight drinking alcohol, it would be lethal that night.)

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/breast-cancer-prevention/WO00091

My Mum had to take our dog to be put down today.... she was 16 years old and it was her time to go. She had a great life but it's always horrible when you lose a dear pet....
97122 Sorry about your pup. I am sure she was a good dog and you and your mom made her life very happy.

That some people just dont get it.
Unfortunately, you will find few people that understand you. You will have to understand them.

[CAMellie]

Just when I start to think that I'm getting a grip on my grief...it hits me in the chest like a sledgehammer. I miss my momma. :(

[Heyyou]

And NOW the hosemates wake up and want to know WHY i didnt "say anything" abotu the water. (MAYBE BECUSE YALL STOLE MY WALLET, MF-ERS!!)

Look look i know that im trying to reign in my posting and i will, and that ive perhaps insulted (without meaning to) some posters and i know some posters sort of have a lot of fun at my expense (just accept it, i know, i cant change the actions of others) and that a LOT of my intentions get misconstrued and joked about and all these things from the past week when all started to kick up. But now, im.. too worried. I mean the living room has water and flooded it seems it was due to the toilet (?) and all i can think about is that my interaction with these people has changed, since yall know what, by now.

Its 6:04AM and i need to be more aware of how other people percieve me (some of yall have some interesting and colorful things to say about me, im sorry to hear, im still stunned at some of the things yall suggest and actually do think sometimes but then again i can -somewhat- key word -somewhat- see how i bring that on, i hope in time the perception will change thats my goal) and its good an event like this happened because now i can reevaulate "living with thieves in Florida with my house flooding and they caring about "why didnt i say anything." because i want you to drown, buttholes..)

Out. Later.

[Heyyou]

And NOW the hosemates wake up and want to know WHY i didnt "say anything" abotu the water. (MAYBE BECUSE YALL STOLE MY WALLET, MF-ERS!!)

Look look i know that im trying to reign in my posting and i will, and that ive perhaps insulted (without meaning to) some posters and i know some posters sort of have a lot of fun at my expense (just accept it, i know, i cant change the actions of others) and that a LOT of my intentions get misconstrued and joked about and all these things from the past week when all started to kick up. But now, im.. too worried. I mean the living room has water and flooded it seems it was due to the toilet (?) and all i can think about is that my interaction with these people has changed, since yall know what, by now.

Its 6:04AM and i need to be more aware of how other people percieve me (some of yall have some interesting and colorful things to say about me, im sorry to hear, im still stunned at some of the things yall suggest and actually do think sometimes but then again i can -somewhat- key word -somewhat- see how i bring that on, i hope in time the perception will change thats my goal) and its good an event like this happened because now i can reevaulate "living with thieves in Florida with my house flooding and they caring about "why didnt i say anything." because i want you to drown, buttholes..)

Classic Aspergers, now im just kind of outside being quiet and they are all like "Why didnt you say or do anything." Im sure some that jest over me will think i was trying to find out hos much they weigh. Lol? Well, thats my attempt at a joke for today.

Today is a new day. Woo-hoo.

Out. Later. Ty.

Oh, and for all those wondering... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pltwnSMR8yU

I apoligize for anyone offended at my post, though i tried to make it unoffensive, and even include a joke!. Today will be a day of light posting. Thats my focus... because ive earned a reputation and sentiment, and im totally down for the long road to getting better, FWIW.

Ok got to work on this, thanks.

[spiritangel]

friends keep asking me what happened with Isaac and I just dont have the answers or the heart to talk about it

[Lovelyone]

I totally empathize with this. My sister is almost 43 and is in her second set of radiation treatments. The doctors have asked her to make a decision about a mastectomy before this set of treatments is over. She can have one breast removed with a prosthesis, one removed with reconstruction surgery or a bi-lateral with reconstruction (which is what her doctors are suggesting). What a hard decision to make. On top of this she is having kidney failure. I pray for your cousin and my sister.

My sister has been having issues with her kidneys for the past three weeks. The docs decided it was her Chemo that was affecting her kidneys and so they switched some of her meds. She was scheduled for some testing yesterday to find out what is going on but her kidneys were so bad that they kept her overnight last night (and possibly for tonight too). I am happy that she's being well taken care of,gets a few days rest from her children and the everyday aspects of life...but I am still very concerned about her health and I miss her. She's my best friend.