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Old 04-07-2009, 12:12 AM   #34
mossystate
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It is really only recently that I have become scared shitless that I will continue to gain, or not be able to lose some weight. When I was much smaller, I thought about the actual numbers more than I do now. But, because I am nearly 47 years old, and my eating has, at times, become crazy, I respond more to the REALITY of what is happening with my body, and then the normal aging process that is a bucket of cold water in ones face.

Would I take a ' skinny pill '?...no...because my mind does not work the exact same way it did when I was younger. However, I sure as hell hope I will be able to lose some weight. Again...REALITY can't always be self loved away. While I like some of the aspects of my fat, and I would never be thin, I hope to not be too much older with this exact body. If I do continue on with this body, then I hope I can deal.

I don't have thoughts about what I ' should ' look like. I don't care what the mainstream side says...and I don't care what some here might say. I just want to get to a place where the buzzing from both ' sides ' is out of my head...and I live for me. * drags my good self to bed...it's late!...zzzzzzzz *
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