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Old 08-09-2010, 03:17 PM   #40
Amaranthine
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Originally Posted by blubberismanly View Post
I tried to post this before but I got a message saying it had to be approved to post...whatever. I'm giving it another shot.

I honestly don't like being into fat guys. It has been very difficult physically and emotionally. I've been insulted, humiliated and alienated from friends because of it. I wish I could be more ordinary...I like rock stars and guys with guitars. I just prefer the chubby ones. If I had a choice I'd take out the chubby part and be a band groupie.

Being unique is one thing but being so grossly different is completely another. I don't have any friends offline who think the same way I do about men, and I can't share my eye candy with anyone else. It is difficult, and heartbreaking going to a club with friends and not being able to point out a guy I alone think is hot.

I'm all for pride in one's self, but it isn't easy to be proud of this when "beautiful" men strike me as the opposite.
I know that feeling- I've gotten all kinds of fun commentary from my friends, who of course always fawn over the jock with a 6 pack. It's not immensely enjoyable to get some comment on it EVERY day.

Granted, I used to be shy as hell and REALLLY self conscious about it. But, then I met someone who actually told me that it was okay...it's like, boom, epiphany. And I've gotten a lot more confident about it since then. So, if they have a problem with who I am, it's their problem. Not mine.

Plus, I've tried thin cuddling- too much bone on bone action.

I'm sorry that everyone makes it so hard on you =[ If it makes you feel any better, I definitely feel the same way about guys xD
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