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Old 12-12-2010, 05:52 PM   #66
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Originally Posted by superodalisque View Post
in your journey where are you? do you or are you at the stage of just trying to accept your fat or do you actually like it? i know a lot of people have gone from kind of accepting the societal line that its better to be thin to accepting the size they are. where do you fit on the continuim? if there were a skinny pill would you take it tomorrow? would you be ok with losing for non health oriented reasons or do you feel a bit sad when you drop a few? are you happier when you gain? or are you somewhere in the middle, enjoying it on some days and not so much on others?
I've always been a chubby kid, from the day I was born, till today... When I was born, I was so big, the doctor had to pull on my shoulders, HARD, to deliver me. This left me with a permanent reminder of what is coming to be a challenging life.

Starting out at 10 lbs, 10 ounces is where I began.

At my heaviest, I was a sophomore/junior in high school.

Proportionately, I was my smallest during middle school..

And i always hated myself. I always sought to be skinny and beautiful like all of my friends. I hated not being able to just squish into the back of a car, or run around and play tag or something. Instead, I held back. I wanted to change myself. I tried this summer, and I did lose some weight. I gained it back on as school came around.

But one day..

I looked in the mirror and realized that I have accepted where I am. I am currently 305 pounds. I have flabby thighs, chunky arms, and a belly. My shoulders slope funny from my choppy entrance to the world. I have a double chin, and really round cheeks. But you know what? I'm also really pretty.

I have accepted myself, and I am beginning to see how beautiful I really am, inside and out.
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