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Old 05-19-2016, 09:30 AM   #7
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I was always a hungry kid – probably why I was over thirty pounds at my one year old check-up. My parents did a pretty good job of getting me to eat fairly reasonably, with a mix of how much they gave me and constant coaching on what we’d now call EQ – delaying snacks, having just a small snack, etc. I’ve sometimes summarized the main message I got growing up as “You can have as many cookies as you want; but you should only want one.” (and wanting approval, I’d just have one, even though I so desperately wanted more)

Sometimes I wonder if my path to FA-ness was simply seeking someone who would only go with the first part of that sentence “You can have as many cookies as you want.” By this line of reasoning, I thought that the only people who would value being fat and indulging a large appetite were others who were fat and indulged a large appetite, so clearly I should look for another fat person. Supporting evidence for this line of reasoning was that my first pseudo-sexual fantasies were about myself, the chubby neighbor boy, and the two heaviest girls in my grade six class having a sort of weight gain club, and I’d map out how over the years we’d learn to gain faster and faster, and when we finished high-school the fattest boy would get to date the fattest girl (my romantic/sexual imagination was not well developed back then … and may have been mostly inspired by Archie comics).

I’m not at all sure that this is why I like what I like, but it would make a nice convenient explanation. (I’m usually suspicious of simple explanations for any human behavior/preferences, which is why I’m not convinced).
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