If I'm Not Fat, then Who am I?

Well, this is an odd one. My p-doc did a pretty thorough testing of my blood. He called me Friday afternoon and said it was abnormal, and no big deal, so not to worry.

I finally get ahold of him today, and my thyroid is in bad, bad shape. He says there is no way I could lose weight no matter how little I ate (So fuck you very much law of thermodynamics people). Everything else was just barely normal. Apparently there's a marker for a tendency to become diabetic, which I was close to meeting, but did not meet, as well as being barely on the normal side of high blood pressure. He thinks when I lose weight both these values will fall into normal range.

I am sure most people would be thrilled to hear this news, but I've been fat since high school. I don't know how to not be fat. I don't know if my bf will still be attracted to me (he likes bigger women), and, regardless of how yall feel about him, and I feel about him myself sometimes, I don't know anyone else who will take me and a passel of cats in

I'm looking for an internist now, and part of me says I should be over the moon, but I'[m just not