Hello everyone, I've had an account here for some time now, though I never post. I have a question for anyone, everyone. I turned 40 this past April, Im currently about 420lbs, used to be closer to 650. And I thought my self image would change, but it hasn't. I'm tired of being ashamed. I've literally beat myself up verbally all my life for my weight and body. Mirrors where a no-no. I saw a freak of nature, someone that needed to be put down. I see myself with pure disgust. But I'm trying to dig my way out of this hole. My question is how, how do I love myself, accept myself. Just feel half normal. I don't leave the house, stores make me sick to my stomach cause the way people look at me. I want a life. I'm tired of hiding. ;( Any advice?