So I am a BHM, not by choice, 6'0" 250 lbs, and I am a loser in love. Despite being 25, I have never even been kissed or been on a real date. I want to find a woman I could potentially spend my life with, but the problem is I am not a FA. I have found many types of women physically attractive from petite (my ideal) to noticably overweight, but I've yet to find a woman as obese as me or close to whom I have been physically attracted, even if I know they are great and lovely people. Now I know petite, average, and slightly overweight FFAs exist, but you have to admit they are very much the minority among both women those sizes and FFAs. So the odds of finding a woman like this who ALSO would desire me despite my lack of experience and history of mental health issues AND ALSO be compatible as friends, partners, and lovers are slim to none. (Particularly concerned about being compatible lovers because I am very curious and interested in exploring or trying out aspects of ethical non-monogamy, group sex, and BDSM. Wouldn't say being into that stuff is necessary, but at least would need to be open about experimenting and sharing fantasies and desires without judgement. Also not into feedism or fat fetish.) The numbers suggest that the only way I can realistically find a woman to love is if I become a FA or bisizual to increase my dating pool, but I don't know how to do that. I have tried looking at images and porn of BBWs and forcing myself to think "I am so attracted to her" but it hasn't worked, I just feel neutral. Is there anything else I can do to become genuinely attracted to BBWs?