These episodes are taking me on an unsettling tour that could be called "Size Acceptance and Me." I'm reliving the oppression, shame, anger, liberation, rebellion, confusion of years past ... and it's rocking my sense of self. Philosophically, I'd love to wrap my life around size acceptance and thumb my nose at height/weight charts. But, on the practical side, I have diabetes-related kidney disease and must reach BMI requirements to get on a transplant list. (And, with a "lifestyle-related" condition like this, society is quick to dump blame and scorn on fat patients.) So, here I am, I'm trying to carve out a place for me and my body in the midst of these very conflicting feelings. Whew, I definitely did not expect all this turmoil from a TV show.