First BBW memory

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    I'm just curious to hear everyone's stories as to how they got hooked on fat/curves/weight gain...
    Share your story and I'll share mine...
     
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    This topic has come up here a few times. I think having a fresh thread on the subject is fair given how many new members we have.

    I shared this story on one of the earlier threads on this subject. When I was 12 I had a friend who was a year older, and was pretty chubby. She was just a buddy for the longest time but one day at school we were shifting our chairs around for a classroom activity. She put her chair next to a friend I wanted to sit next to, so I slid into her chair. She just smiled, turned around and sat on my lap. Everyone in the class was laughing and she just sat there until the teacher told her to go ahead and get up. She lived a short walk away from my house and after school that night I walked to her house. I very awkwardly admitted I enjoyed it when she sat on me and she dragged me off to her bedroom and pinned my scrawny self to the floor and sat on me again.

    Up until then I was not remotely attracted to her and didn’t have a hint of a crush on her. That experience I think shaped me significantly because it wasn’t just my first “moment” with a big girl, it was my first moment with a girl at all! I’ve sometimes wondered if she had not sat on me would I have ever become a chubby chaser or was I already one from the start and she simply unlocked it?
     
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    That was a great story Happily_Married, yeah I thought there would be a thread somewhere but figured it'd be buried deep in the past so better to start fresh. I personally think understanding people's "origin stories" into this community provides a great insight into who they are and where they've been.

    We're kinda kindred spirits Happily_Married as mine was very similar...

    I think I might have mentioned this story before. But basically I was around a similar age to you and came out of a break up with a gorgeous fit/popular girl. She was constantly obsessed with her figure and appearance to the point of obsession it made dates on weekends a little bit annoying as I never really felt she lived in the moment with the rest of the gang,,,

    Anyhow after a disastrous break-up where she cheated on me I began to get hooked on training myself and toned up a lot for the summer holiday. This one day I was on Dartmoor with some friends and there were loads of groups of people around our age. All of my friends were hooking up with one another so I was pretty much a loner at this creek party.

    These two girls, curvy and in very tight swimwear came up and started talking with me. They were so confident, more than fitter folk, and before I knew it I was tagging along with them for the day. One of them sat on my lap in the water and became very flirtatious encouraging me to hold on to her curves... A little later they had convinced me and made me see the light we all ran away together and they encouraged me to feed them full. It was incredibly enthralling and as if like a flick of a switch I had been pulled into a whole new world with a new perspective on confidence, the "perfect body" and a desire to explore and learn more...
     
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    Nice story/experience, @GeeseHoward. From the sound of it you must have been older than me though. I was 12, she was 13 when the experience I shared took place. The activities you’re describing sound a little more advanced than 12/13 year olds.
     
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    Yeah it was a little bit older. Around college time.
     
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    Oh goodness I’d be banned from this place if I shared some of my college experiences!
     
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    I didn't really have any particular experience, it was always there in me I think. I was certainly interested in fat and fat people even as a kid, and one Fall day in grade six I suddenly noticed one of the girls in class in a way that I never had before, and I envisioned it as being like a band of energy connecting my bit of tummy to her bit of tummy. Not that I didn't notice some of the thinner girls when they finally began to develop, but right from then it was hard for me to imagine having a serious relationship with someone who wasn't fat. (Despite which, the first girl that I fell hard for, in high school, was thin and athletic, but it was just a case of personality and intellect creating the initial attraction, after which I found ways to be attracted to her physically. I remember going through some angst of really wanting to be with that girl but thinking my fat love could mess it all up. But then my family moved across an ocean before we'd gotten past flirting, so my teenage angst was all for naught).

    In hind sight, at the same time I was falling for the chubbiest girl in class, I think one of the thin girls was a proto-FFA, but it wasn't until years later when I knew that FFA existed that I put together the signs. What maybe could have been!
     
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    Great thread. Thanks everyone for posting. @Geese: Can't imagine a more fantastic initiation!

    I'm like you, Tad--ever since I can remember I've been into fat. At first more as a curiosity (probably before I was sexualized), then as I entered my teen years I realized I was attracted to big girls. I remember one girl in my 8th or 9th grade class who I found especially attractive. Big belly and always wearing tight pants. She came late in the school year and I was too shy to approach her. Looking back I wish I would have. The kids seemed to be pretty hostile to fat when I was discovering my attraction.

    I caught a lot of bad energy about being an FA when I was younger and closed myself off for a while, dating only skinny girls and thinking maybe I'd grow out of being an FA. Never happened. Glad it didn't!

    I've tried to narrow down a core experience that might have led me to being attracted to fat and the best I can do is link it to stuffing pillows in my pants and shirt with a girl that lived next door when I was about 4 or 5. I think that's when the fascination began.

    I also remember being 12 or 13, maybe, and some kid pulling up a porn site in computer class. All the girls were attractive, but skinny. I knew then--I like them much much bigger.
     
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    @Broseph, similar experience here. The girl I mentioned above became my girlfriend (as much as kids that age can be girlfriend/boyfriend) and it was brutal being the boyfriend of a fat girl. I was this tiny, skinny kid and she was already over 200 pounds. Plus she was a little older than me and strong willed, so I got ordered around a lot.

    About 6-7 months later her family moved away. By then it was almost a relief because a boy at that age just doesn’t know what to do with a girlfriend and the teasing was ridiculous.

    So after that I did 13-14 year old boy stuff, baseball, playing around by the river etc, and didn’t have a girlfriend again. When high school started there were so many girls and a few pretty chubby ones seemed to like me. I was too worried about image to talk to them, despite how pretty I thought they were.

    That idiotic mindset lasted into my 20s. Even when I started opening up to pursuing big girls it was a process. I didn’t just flip the switch.

    It took a while to get entirely over the image consciousness. I’m glad i did though, and didn’t get married while I was still trying to force myself to like “hot” girls.

    Sometimes thinking about all the near misses and how different life would be if one were a hit makes me shudder.
     
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    @happily_married: Nice reading your post. Glad to hear it was a process for you too. I relate big time to the worries about image, as I think I mentioned in my post.

    I almost broke out of this when I was about 17. There was a chubby girl who, according to her friend, was interested in me. I told the friend that I was into the her too (the chubby girl). Over the next day or two I told one of my best friends about the girl and that I was planning to go out with her. He knew who she was and I'll never forget what he said about the situation, "you have such bad taste in women." Looking back, I've realized that this person probably wasn't such a good friend afterall. Anyway, this and another experience a day or two later reset the whole image issue.

    Today I'd be proud to be seen with a big girl. Proud to be an FA. But it's taken some time for me to open up to this. Wild how things seem like such a big deal when you're a kid/teenager.
     
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    When I was 17 (1972) I read an article about NAAFA with pics of a group of SSBBW and FA. I instantly knew I'm an FA too. Since that time I'm lost in the fat world.
     
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    When I was in high school my sister and I were at the mall and went into Spencer’s. She showed me these birthday cards that had SSBBWs in sexy poses. By this point it had been a good five or so years since the experience I already shared, and my sister intermittently used to tease me about fat girls.

    Usually it irritated me, but when she showed me those cards and said, “you’d probably hit That wouldn’t you?” I couldn’t be made because I knew it was true! Deep down inside I knew it was true!

    Not really a BBW experience but relevant. My sister saw it coming, even before I did.
     
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