http://futotteru.deviantart.com/ <---Me
I'm a male FA who has been in the closet about it for my entire life. I developed this fetish at a very young age and never have been able to be honest about it. I would like to blame society but I know the only one to blame is myself. I've seen others embrace it and feel no shame from it and I've only been able to watch in admiration. All I ever felt was embarrassment and shame from it. Now that I am 27 I find myself feeling regret that I've never had the courage to be what I am. All of my life I have dealt with depression and social anxiety and I've come to the conclusion my fetish was at the root of it all, knowing no matter how close I got with someone I could never be 100% honest with anyone. This was the first website I discovered that let me know I wasn't alone back when I was 10, so I figured it was fitting to have my final say here. I am exhausted and sick of myself. I've decided to finally put an end to my life, which is something I've contemplated for many years. I can only hope people like me out there can have the courage to live their life exactly the way they want to, no matter what anyone thinks, including themselves.
I'm a male FA who has been in the closet about it for my entire life. I developed this fetish at a very young age and never have been able to be honest about it. I would like to blame society but I know the only one to blame is myself. I've seen others embrace it and feel no shame from it and I've only been able to watch in admiration. All I ever felt was embarrassment and shame from it. Now that I am 27 I find myself feeling regret that I've never had the courage to be what I am. All of my life I have dealt with depression and social anxiety and I've come to the conclusion my fetish was at the root of it all, knowing no matter how close I got with someone I could never be 100% honest with anyone. This was the first website I discovered that let me know I wasn't alone back when I was 10, so I figured it was fitting to have my final say here. I am exhausted and sick of myself. I've decided to finally put an end to my life, which is something I've contemplated for many years. I can only hope people like me out there can have the courage to live their life exactly the way they want to, no matter what anyone thinks, including themselves.
