What a moving story, thank you for sharing! It really got me thinking as I felt I could easily empathize with your experience. Wow.
For myself, I was always a pretty introspective kid. I was aware in my youth that I found fat women - especially supersized women - extremely exciting and attractive. I felt a sense of gratification in seeing fat female cartoon characters like Hoppopotamus from
The Wuzzles or Annabelle from
Eek! The Cat ... the hippos from Disney's
Fantasia always were a joy to watch. My stuffed animals were always paired off with a big, round female and a little or lanky male (my little plush toy rabbit dated a pink Big Things puffalump elephant for a long time, LOL)... I just felt it was best and right. I honestly didn't even hear anything negative about fat girls until I was in my early teens, to be honest. I guess I was unimpeded in my developing a love for big women in my childhood!