Love.Metal
Dr. Bitchcraft
My normal, skinny, nice, adoring, funny, intelligent boyfriend of 7 months has discovered that I love fat men...
Crap.
We were texting, and he mentioned that he's running every night now [I did not know this until tonight], and I expressed dismay[obviously].
He said he wants to lose the 20 pounds he's gained in the last 7 months, because he doesn't like how he looks. Well, my heart dropped upon reading that...and dumb me, I told him that makes me sad.
That turned into a text-convo about how he thinks I need to support him in his quest to love his body, and I agreed with him...I think that we all need to accept our outer selves, although in reality it's just what holds our insides in. I just prefer a larger inside-holder-thingy. <---intelligent.
So he finally texts me:
"I'm not fat, nor do I wanna be EVER so I guess you fell for the wrong guy".
I...almost threw up.
So I am now having a few drinks.
That somehow turned into me not being in love with him, and so on and so forth *drama drama drama*
All this, our relationship is hanging by it's final thread, and he's unsure if he even wants to be with me anymore...because he found out I like fat men. I know he's suspected it, I mean...I try SO HARD to be subtle and "normal"...but I fail epicly at that, apparently. And really, I'm just bi-sizual...but I was too upset to tell him that. It isn't like it would matter, "Sorry honey, yes I like fat guys, but I like skinny guys, too!"
That doesn't erase the fact that I am attracted to obese men.
I think that the concept of me being bi-sizual would be lost on him.
So...
...shit.
Crap.
We were texting, and he mentioned that he's running every night now [I did not know this until tonight], and I expressed dismay[obviously].
He said he wants to lose the 20 pounds he's gained in the last 7 months, because he doesn't like how he looks. Well, my heart dropped upon reading that...and dumb me, I told him that makes me sad.
That turned into a text-convo about how he thinks I need to support him in his quest to love his body, and I agreed with him...I think that we all need to accept our outer selves, although in reality it's just what holds our insides in. I just prefer a larger inside-holder-thingy. <---intelligent.
So he finally texts me:
"I'm not fat, nor do I wanna be EVER so I guess you fell for the wrong guy".
I...almost threw up.
So I am now having a few drinks.
That somehow turned into me not being in love with him, and so on and so forth *drama drama drama*
All this, our relationship is hanging by it's final thread, and he's unsure if he even wants to be with me anymore...because he found out I like fat men. I know he's suspected it, I mean...I try SO HARD to be subtle and "normal"...but I fail epicly at that, apparently. And really, I'm just bi-sizual...but I was too upset to tell him that. It isn't like it would matter, "Sorry honey, yes I like fat guys, but I like skinny guys, too!"
That doesn't erase the fact that I am attracted to obese men.
I think that the concept of me being bi-sizual would be lost on him.
So...
...shit.
