*Big, big hugz* finding love isn't easy. I know many fat girls who've had no difficulty finding and keeping it, but I haven't, still looking, and can tell you've been hurt too. I just wanted to say - keep strong, don't settle, don't take shit just so you're with somebody. Either God will send you the person who will be your perfect fit or there's something more you're meant to be getting out of this journey as a single person. Either way, you aren't alone, and I hope that one who'll adore you as you are and be proud of you as you are, comes along soon.Sure I believe FAs exist. I just haven't personally MET ONE, at least not one that was ever interested in me for anything other than sex.
To be honest, in my experience men are willing to have sex with me at any time. But to be seen in public with me, oh HELL no. They won't be seen with the fat girl. In a photo (just a head shot) I don't look heavy, and I've had men change their minds about dating me because they see the rest of me or find out that I'm a BBW. It got to the point that when I was doing the online dating thing, I'd put in my profile that I was a BBW just to weed out the assholes in the beginning.
I've NEVER met a FA who was interested in me, and I'm only about 275, which is small by a lot of BBW standards. I don't know, maybe it's where I live or my interests... hell, even the fat GUYS who were balding and social misfits still seemed to feel like they were entitled to a size 6 supermodel. Mind boggling.