Kicking shame in the ass

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  1. Feb 23, 2007 #1

    magnoliagrows

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    Last night I masturbated. I didn't mean to. I wasn't thinking about it at all when I went to bed. But my husband is out of town and I never sleep well in the bed alone anymore. So I was tossing and turning. My hand brushed my belly and I thought, "oooo." So it went on from there. What was so wonderfully different from past experiences was how aware I was of the sheets rubbing my belly and how much my body jiggled through the process. I love the feeling of my belly being rubbed during intercourse and I've felt the jiggle too. Its been good. But this was by myself with no other "distractions." It was awesome.

    So why the title? Afterwards I was laying in my bed and suddenly I started fantasizing about losing weight and figuring how much I would have to lose for the Doctor to smile at me again. I stopped. What was going on? I had just had this awesome experience because I was bigger and I'm thinking about losing? I started examining my feelings and found embarrassement and dare I say, shame? What did I have to be shameful about? I hadn't done anything wrong or unnatural.

    So here it is. I'm outing the shame. This post is me saying, "Get out, Shame. You have no place with me!"
     
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  2. Feb 23, 2007 #2

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  3. Feb 24, 2007 #3

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    last night I masturbated as well. then i smoked a cigarette and cut myself. i like your story better though.
     
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  4. Feb 24, 2007 #4

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    I too double clicked my mouse and fell fast asleep like a baby :)
     
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  5. Feb 24, 2007 #5

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    Masturbation is funtimes. >_> But, sometimes I feel the same way. It's ridiculous. The shame is pointless, I don't think it does anything other than make you unhappy.
     
  6. Feb 25, 2007 #6

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    I'm a guy, so perhaps I'm talking a bit out of turn. But, I wanted to say:

    Thanks, magnolia. This is an awesome post. I realize many of us get taught that our bodies, its sexuality, and its pleasures come with some tinge of shame. Masterbating, fetish, auto-eroticism, experimenting, etc., has this stigma. Many folks, here, of course, out that shite for what it is. Like you, they reject it. And, for that I say, "Amen."

    I've heard some fat folk, too - women in particular - talk about they're sent this message that they aren't or aren't supposed to be sexual. The approved or "proper sexual body" is sleek, proportioned, firm, submissive, airbrushed, etc. Like most everyone here, I celebrate rejecting this norm, especially of femininity.

    Yeah! for liberation whenever and however it comes. Outing shame, for what it is, is courageous. Not everyone has the courage to say it, post it, etc.

    Sorry if this post sounds like a support group meeting. But, Dim, I think, is supposed to be that, too!
     
  7. Feb 25, 2007 #7

    Tooz

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    I felt like that until recently, where I realised that I don't think I'd feel sexy thin. Just a personal feeling. There are sexy thin people, but I wouldn't feel like I was. Since I have come to that conclusion, my general self esteem has increased. I am not really scared of sexuality anymore, either.
     
  8. Feb 25, 2007 #8

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    Thanks. :)
     
  9. Feb 25, 2007 #9

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    I'm so glad you posted this, Magnolia. We are soooo conditioned as women to be "proper" and a "good girl" when it comes to sexuality. Anytime a woman wants to show her sexual side, she's labeled as a whore or slut. Eff that noise! :D
     
  10. Feb 26, 2007 #10

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    I frig away all the time, and let me tell you: IT IS GOOD TIMES! :D

    I also bought my first toy yesterday, from Philly. I'M A BIG GIRL NOW! :D

    /END CAPS.
     
  11. Feb 26, 2007 #11

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    Well, we'll be seeing you in a couple of weeks then. Have fun! :D :D
     
  12. Feb 26, 2007 #12

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    what's funny is that I just bought my first toy a week ago myself.
    I'm a big girl now too!
     
  13. Feb 26, 2007 #13

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    You rock my socks krissy! :) I love your posts.... because they are so true! :) I had a toy once. I named it BOB... battery operated boyfriend ;) He was good to me.
     
  14. Feb 26, 2007 #14

    Tooz

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    I got mine when I was 19. Best 20 bucks I ever spent. >_>
     
  15. Feb 26, 2007 #15

    curvalicious

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    haha, I'm 19, and mine cost 20 bucks as well!!!
     
  16. Feb 26, 2007 #16

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    I think this is shameful, what you women are doing. :cool:
     
  17. Feb 26, 2007 #17

    Tooz

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    Your FACE is shameful ! :batting:
     
  18. Feb 26, 2007 #18

    Tooz

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    I got a better one at a sex shop in Boston on my 21th birthday. :D
     
  19. Feb 26, 2007 #19

    love dubh

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    MINE WAS 20 BUX TOO.

    Holy crap.

    WE SHOULD FORM A TRIUMVERATE!
     
  20. Feb 26, 2007 #20

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    We So Should!!!!
     

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