I mostly agree with you @AmyJo1976. Sorry for the so very late reply!!!Been pondering posting in this thread for a while, so here it goes! I'll answer in the format of the original post.
My Fat Attraction doesn't come from a problem from my childhood that I am aware of.
My Fat Attraction partially came from my own fatness.
My Fat Attraction doesn't come from my own self-loathing.
My Fat Attraction doesn't come from my own self-esteem.
My Fat Attraction doesn't come from an experience of rejection. I believe it comes from experience of acceptance experimenting in trying new things.
My Fat Attraction might have started as a fetish in the beginning, but has evolved over the years into a full-blown preference.
My Fat Attraction doesn't come from an abusive attitude.
My Fat Attraction doesn't come from a want to take advantage of anyone.
My Fat Attraction came later in life and I totally embrace it! My only regret is that I didn't discover it sooner!
Very realistic way of thinking, thanks a lot, @Shotha !My fat attraction doesn't come from anywhere. It's always been part of me. I always thought that fat people were so wonderful, even when I was a child. When people asked me, "What do you want to be, when you grow up?" I always wanted to answer, "A fat man." I was to scared to say that; so I would tell them something more conventional such as a doctor or a translator. When I grew up, I thought that fat guys with big bellies were the most attractive. I dated nothing but fat guys. I thought they looked so beautiful and cute and cuddly, and feeling a big fat belly pressed against me made me feel utterly ecstatic. I only dated a thin guy once and it was a disaster, because he didn't have the right body parts to satisfy me. Because I thought that fat guys were so beautiful, I decided to get fat, so that I could be one of the beautiful people. Where did this attraction to fat guys come from? I have no idea. It just is, always was and always will be me.
I felt something similar. Even when I was thin, I identified as fat. I was fat on the inside. It was like being in the wrong body. I wouldn't say that it was dysphoria. It was like the feeling that people get about how they should have been a certain figure out of history or a certain animal. I always knew that one day I would do something to fix this mismatch between body and soul. I have a lot of friends, who are trans, and I often joke with them that I'm "transitioning into a polar bear." They don't find this offensive, because it really makes sense to them. "Polar bear" is a term used in the gay community to refer to fat, older men, who are going grey or white.I always felt like when I was skinny, I was wearing a suit or a mask, pretending to be somebody or something that I'm not.
I didn't find a true attraction on thin women too, @Reddi! Even on the ladies who made Playboy Magazine's covers and centerfolds. I used to be a closet FA years ago and I suffered it a lot!My fat attraction is more like I don’t find thin women sexually attractive at all. I used to be “in the closet”, but now I can be myself, I find larger (ss) women to be super sexy.
Nice story, thank you for sharing it with us, @loopytheone !I was born being attracted to fat people too, Shotha. Even as a little kid, whenever I played pretend games with people, I'd always want to be a fat version of whatever I was. I always felt like when I was skinny, I was wearing a suit or a mask, pretending to be somebody or something that I'm not.
Much happier and more relaxed now I understand all that.
Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts, @lostinadaydream ! I'm a 5'7" and 350lbs SSBHM who likes SSBBWs who are from 5'11 to 6'4 tall and a weight of 350 to 450lbs. with the biggest arms I could find for the biggest and strongest of the hugs!!!My fat attraction comes from the fact that I'm a big guy and I love big girls. I could not be happy with a girl smaller and tinyer than me. I need much to feel, to cuddle, to enjoy. Loads and loads of fat, much much woman. Huge (a)mounts of squishy, soft fat to get excited.
Thank you for your words of kindness, @Shotha ! And also, thanks for understanding what I feel!@Colonial Warrior, thank you so much for sharing your very moving story. Life experiences like yours are why I think that this is one of the most important threads that I have ever seen on Dimensions Magazine. I hope that the discussion on this thread will continue for a long time.