So… I get that airing dirty laundry isn't exactly the classy thing to do here, but… There's no way in hell I can afford counselling right now and I just need to get this out. [Read: feel free to hop off here if you're not into the idea of getting on board the Odie drama train.] A whole slew of my father's sexual exploits has finally been brought to light and exploded in my mom's face a few days ago. It involves bringing prostitutes around to my aunt's house, to the houses of family friends; and it also involves the sexual harassment of another one of my aunts. This has been an enormous family eruption. Threatening phone calls made drunkenly by him at 2 AM, who believes whom, that type of thing. I am safe, I'm in a peaceful environment - if a bit stringent - for the first time in years. But I feel out of place, upside down and coming apart at the seams, especially without my little puppy familiar, who I left to fend for herself amidst the chaos. Basically, this is just a clusterfuck of an adjustment period and everything is up in the air. I'm trying to breathe, trust that my puppy will be ok, that she knows I'll come back for regular visits and I haven't abandoned her, that my new life will be manageable, that my "father's" time of ruining lives has finally come to an end, that my mom and I will get through it together and come out stronger. God knows, I am trying hard to convince myself of all these things. MrSensible has been more incredible in this time than I can put into words. I truly don't know where I'd be right now without him. So there are silver linings. I'm holding onto them for dear life and hoping they'll do the trick in carrying me through.