The Inexplicable Force

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    From early childhood, I can recall events that somehow, had a lasting effect on me and the way I view my own body, and those of others. This was long before puberty and the awakening of any sexual drives. For me, it was the enchantment of a story. A classic. A fairy tale in fact. We all know the story of Hansel and Gretel, and how they were lured into the clutches of the witch by their hunger and greed.
    Well, for me, something connected with me when the story described the feeding and fattening of Hansel, albeit that is was leading to a potentially fatal end in the witch's oven. There, upon first reading of this story, was the first notion of this strange and inexplicable force, that has been a part of me ever since. The fact remains that I wanted to be in Hansel's position, but unlike Hansel tricking the witch with the bone, I would have succumbed to the feedings and allowed myself to become fat. Admittedly, in the story scenario, I would have accelerated my doom, but the principle fact was that I somehow didn't care - I wanted to get fat.

    I still don't understand what this thing is that drives my desire to this day? It is like a force that compels me towards my dream of becoming really fat, even though all the medical advice is against that. There is definitely something pleasing and alluring about watching myself growing bigger, seeing new bulges, finding clothes getting tighter and feeling the softness of growing layers of fat. I see other people who are fat or becoming fat, and it just reinforces my own desires, but what is it that has such a powerful hold and makes those of us who want to gain weight and get fatter? It is inexplicable, and the it is a powerful force, but what is it?

    Does anything I have said strike a note of recognition in anyone else here? I don't think it's just a sexual thing, it goes a lot deeper than that. I would like to know if anyone else has any thoughts on this?
     
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    I assune you had been raised up into a God-fearing background.

    Don't get me wrong, that's just a remark: we may interpret your infantile fascination towards macrophilia and adipophilia as some lingering sexuoerotic trigger associated to your repressed memories of maternal care and breastfeeding, the turmoil between guilt and morbid obsession as some sort of early apprehension of the concept of the deadly sins in Christianity, the witch's oven as either a repressed negative memory about a mother-like figure anyhow or an embodiment of chaotic sexuality (like used to be Catwoman for most people since their young age) .
     
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    I know the feeling you mean, OP, to some degree at least. I don't think I can really offer anything insightful though because I think some people are just drawn to things. Ever since I was a little kid I've been infatuated with fat people and weight gain. I don't think these things have answers, really, they are just a part of us.
     
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    John, you're somewhat off target there. I'm not a believer, never have been. I think that if I were to try to nail this down at all, then I would say that I may have a repressed desire for transformation. Becoming more female and curvaceous through the addition of fat, growing breasts for example. The oven I think is more likely associated with an acceptance of a known risk, or that my drive to gain is greater than my own natural sense of self-preservation. However, all that said, for all I know, you could be spot on!!
     
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    Thanks for commenting though, it all helps. I think you might be right. Maybe I just have to accept that there is something operating at a really low level, or which is beneath the conscious mind. Some kind of instinctive urge?
     
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    You may not forcibly being a believer, it is however observed in psychoanalysis that one individual psyche may been affected by the collective unconscious from which he belongs to.
     
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    For me, too, there is something about getting fatter that goes beyond the sexual arousal, which it brings me. It's an identity issue for me. I like to be seen as "the fat man". I liked the fat guys around me, when I was little and decided that I wanted to be one of them. Whatever size or shape I have been on the outside, I've always been fat on the inside. My soul is fat.

    I think that this desire to gain weight comes from the desire to eat, in order to grow. Most kids take pride in themselves every time that they have notched up a few more inches on the height chart. We have an inherent natural diversity, which has evolved in us and is quite helpful to have for our survival as a species. Some of us have this urge to grow more than average. In evolutionary terms this is a good thing. It helps us to survive things like famine and exposure to cold and, therefore, it helps our species to survive. We that's my two cents' worth. I tend to view these things in evolutionary terms, which give a rosier view of fat people and gainers. I don't listen so much to the medical profession or the weight loss industry. Their view of fat is somewhat skewed, because there is an advantage for them in finding something wrong with us, so that they can fix it. I'm happy with being fat and I don't want anybody "fixing" it.
     
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