This is long but I really just needed to vent, hard. I don't expect replies but it was bubbling up inside of me and I needed to get it out...
I have this gamer friend I met online about a year or so ago who was pretty cool. We talk and game sometimes but recently not, because I got a job and am always busy. A few weeks ago, he flaunts his money in a photo where he got $1,000+ free from the government from FAFSA/aid, by "going to school". He is rarely even at school. I know this because he Snapchats or texts me a lot, daily. This makes me frustrated because I am only eligible for student loans, because I live with my mother and she makes too much (yet we can't ever stay on top of our bills). This frustrates me FURTHER, because he bought a gaming laptop and continues to say that it's for school yet, he's only downloaded a ton of games on it and have yet to see once where he is using it "for school". His biggest defense is that it's HIS MONEY! He can use it how he wants! At least, that's what he says... but it's not. It's the governments money and it should be used to things they expect you to use it on. I wish it was more closely monitored. Use it for books, or saving it for school supplies, not for gaming laptops. Here I am unable to go to school because I can't get $900, which I'm trying to save up, working 18 hours a week if I'm lucky, having to stand the entire time and actually DO stuff... I thought about starting up a donation to try and help with the $900, but I don't think anyone would bother helping. Him on the other hand? He has a "librarian job" at his community college, and while he is at said job, he sends me pictures daily of him in a chair at a computer, or a couch laying with his feet up saying how dead it is, while he does absolutely nothing for the few hours he is there. Recently, when he had taken a picture that he was "Amazon shopping" I said "way to go on spending that government money"... he then told me that he had gotten another job at his COMMUNITY college as a security guard. Now I know not everywhere is the same, but at my community college, security is a joke. He's getting $17 and hour though, and only works a few hours a day. And I get a measly $8.25 at my good ol' job where I have to deal with customers I hate who are rude and spiteful, and make me sad. I asked him today "Yeah, $17/hr for what exactly?" and his response was "Standing and securing!" ... They ride around in cars literally all day or just stand there doing absolutely nothing except trying to write bogus tickets to college students for smoking, or being in the wrong place at the wrong time, or parking in the wrong spot because God forbid they park somewhere not 500 miles from the school building. I know that his TWO jobs are basically nothing to him, because he always has free time to try and talk to me while doing them. Like today he said "we should game later" and my response was "I can't, I have a job." I wish I had that luxury, to do basically nothing and still get paid. To top things off, every time he tries to talk to me now, it's like a battle. He starts being a smart ass saying how I haven't said hi or anything, to where I reply "Yeah, it's because I'm WORKING or sleeping". He always tries to one up me by saying that he is, too, how he is working... yet he is texting me??? And his girlfriend (yes, he has a girlfriend among all of this as well), is the only one who has a REAL job, who supports his lazy ass, and he bitches about her all the time about how she won't touch him anymore. The only reason he gets money is because he lives with her and doesn't have an actual job. Thinking about just blocking him, we only met because we were good gaming friends online but all this competitive shit and trying to one up me is getting old. Now tell me, how does someone like that deserve so much money, for doing close to nothing, to just waste it. It's not only him, I've seen other people get that money and go use it to buy freaking concert tickets. It's just GRINDS MY GEARS SO BAD!
Really what this all boils down to? Kind of a TL;DR - I wish I had money. I'm so sick of my mom working 40+ hours a week to have no money, sick of me working and having no money by the time I buy gas and ONE thing I need. I get $100 a week if I am lucky. My last check was only $90. Better than nothing, but that's after the $30 taken out in taxes, not to mention more that will be taken out for working for a union company. Yeah, in 9 weeks I'd have the money if I didn't have to buy gas or food for the house because my mom pays all the bills. I want money so I could go to school like I want to, and get a degree without having to try so damn hard all the time. Our world just makes me sick how it's run by money yet everything anymore is a damn luxury. People spend millions on weddings and divorces in the same year and I can't even come up with a measly $900 and starting November I'm supposed to start paying back on my $10,000 student loan, and hey, if I don't, they're just going to top that loan with thousands more in interest! I'm so excited! I'm 21 and my credit is going to be screwed. Following in my mothers fiscally irresponsible footsteps when all I want to do is better myself.
Sorry you're going through that.
