Some might not think this is funny, but I sure do. Got this email yesterday from a chaser online pal, who was checking in on me post-Corona Made me smile. "Are you fat?" is a positive, meaning she would be pleased.
confession... i do think boberry has lost a significant amount of weight. in the last weigh in she said she was not planning on changing anything, so the upward trend could continue. but... i confess, i cannot imagine how is to carry 615 pounds and i feel there there could be some drawbacks and while i perfectly understand that i do think she should be transparent about the weight loss, the reasons and how it is to live and go around being so heavy. not for me. i am a male in a healthy weight range , and while i fantasize about being with an ssbbw such as boberry or juicyjackie i think it would be helpful is she comes out and tells everything, helpful for younger models and ladies around the world that are experiencing mixed feeling about their body, weight, relationship with food and else.
Always was fascinated with being fat since puberty at least. Was chubby before puberty but don't recall a particular fascination then. Have been up & down as I let go & then tried to rein myself in, was even borderline underweight for a while in my 20s, BMI 19. 20 years ago, let myself go and within 4 years was at my top weight until now, close to BMI 35. Tried to exert control again, was back around BMI 29 for a while. The pattern continued, though. I'd add weight and then take it off. But now,
I've completely changed my shopping habits to sabotage any restraint I might have had before. I tend to eat when there is food available & I'm not completely full. So, now, I shop so that I will never run out of cookies or chocolates or chips or healthy food. Before I go shopping, I think of things I haven't eaten that I might like to, and buy some of that, as well as replacements to top up supplies of the rest. Back at my top weight and I thought I couldn't get any fatter. With the rest of the year off from work, it may happen. I am at and may exceed my top weight from a decade & a half ago.
Edit to add: One thing I do recall from about age 7 - my grandpa worked in a small town little grocery store, and one day I was there with him. A fellow who was about 400 lbs was in the store, and Grandpa introduced me to 'Fat Jack'. I was literally bowled over. I don't know that that affected me, but there it is, a memory I recall that's still with me after all these years.
Ditto on missing the Christmas spirit. My old tree died, and I bought a new LED one on Amazon. It arrived Sunday morning, and it works great. I've put nothing on it yet. I might coax my grown up kids to come by to visit, feed them and decorate my tree.
IC that I keep buying Costco pastries or chocolate chunk cookies and say that I'll have a few and then take the rest over to my sisters to disseminate between her kids and grandkids and yet I NEVER do. Damn you Costco bakery for making such tasty cookies!!