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If there's already a thread like this somewhere, I apologize.

I didn't discover I was an FFA until I was already 30 years old although I've since then managed to trace it back to sixth grade when I read a book about an obese food critic who had dropped his cane and required several attempts at bending over to pick it up. I remember re-reading the scene over and over because it made me tingle. As an 11-year-old I had no clue what the feeling was, I only knew I wanted more of it.
At said age 30 it was yet another book featuring a BHM, which led to the same physical reaction, although this time of course I knew what that was! ;) I can only explain my late discovery by the lack of exposure to BHM and related literature.

What are your stories? I'm curious!
 

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Basically born with it, some of my earliest memories are weight gain fantasies. Learned it was actually a thing at age thirteen.
 

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There was a very sexy very fat Hispanic guy named Hector whom I worked with. I was not into fat at the time nor had I accepted being gay. Yet every day I’d go home from work and masturbate fantasizing about Hector. I still think about him. He was the first BHM I can remember being turned on by.
 

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A fat girl sat on my lap in middle school. In front of other students, including my friends and a skinny girl I had a kiddy crush on. It was humiliating an exhilarating at the same time.

I’ve told this story elsewhere here so I won’t repeat the whole thing. Cliff notes: she became my first girlfriend and we stayed together until she moved away the following summer. After she moved i maintained a deep preference for fat girls but was embarrassed about it. I suppressed it until my mid-20s until a toxic girlfriend dumped me for another guy. At that time I decided to open up to seeing bigger girls but even then it was a process. Lots of setbacks and embarrassing gaffs.
 

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I'm one of the 'known it forever' ones. Pre school contemplation of the Jack Spratt nursery rhyme is the earliest I can point to. A bit older and I read a pseudo-fairytale picture book called The Pumpkin Giant, where the princess and the boy who eventually marries her are both so fat that they roo everywhere. I recognized that rolling was not a practical way of getting around, but at the same time there was part of me screaming that this was what I wanted. And puberty hit me as attraction to bellies and fantasies of a mutual weight gain club.
 

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A fat girl sat on my lap in middle school. In front of other students, including my friends and a skinny girl I had a kiddy crush on. It was humiliating an exhilarating at the same time.
I had a similar experience.
I was 17 and met some friends from school with their skinny girlfriends on the street, after some hellos and introduction one of the girls said pointing to me: I know you, you were dating a fat girl.
As you wrote, "It was humiliating an exhilarating at the same time".
 

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Like you I didn't fully discover my preference for BHM until I was in my 30s. I think I always had sort of a curiosity toward them, but I just never had the opportunity to fully explore that before. I dated my first BHM when I was about 35 and I was hooked! :D
 

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I had a similar experience.
I was 17 and met some friends from school with their skinny girlfriends on the street, after some hellos and introduction one of the girls said pointing to me: I know you, you were dating a fat girl.
As you wrote, "It was humiliating an exhilarating at the same time".
Oh wow I had a similar experience to that too. Also about 17 or so. My high school had an English teacher who was a plus size Mexican woman, about 350-375 pounds. (We also had a Spanish teacher who was white go figure.)

Anyway even though I was still in the closet at 17 I was entirely smitten by this English teacher. I’m pretty sure she knew it too, because I’d sometimes talk to her before school etc. At the same time I was horrified others would pick up on it.

Also I was not among the most popular kids. I was somewhere in the middle and got along well enough with mostly everyone. Once as a “fringe member” of the popular group I was sitting with some other guys talking about inappropriate relationships with teachers (meaning we were talking about who on our faculty we’d like to have sex with; we had a few pretty attractive women working there). A few girls were listening in smiling and laughing at us. I had not said anything about who I’d want, when one of the girls asked me. Before I could answer she said she could see me being with the English teacher.

Instant arousal and humiliation at the same time, especially as everyone else agreed with her.
 
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It’s been something that’s was there pretty much forever for me. I remember being young and being absolutely fascinated by the scene in Charlotte’s Web where Templeton the rat is gorging at the fair.
I did a play a school of Charlotte's Web, so I can only assume I read the book at some point, but I don't remember that at all?

I remember this story book I had as a kid though, it was called "The Tale of Tom Kitten" or something? And the mother cat tries to put him in clothes and they burst off because he's too fat. I absolutely blame that for my love of button popping/tight clothes!
 

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I did a play a school of Charlotte's Web, so I can only assume I read the book at some point, but I don't remember that at all?

I remember this story book I had as a kid though, it was called "The Tale of Tom Kitten" or something? And the mother cat tries to put him in clothes and they burst off because he's too fat. I absolutely blame that for my love of button popping/tight clothes!
I don’t think the scene is in the book. But here it is.
 

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I noticed the attraction as a young kid but didn't really understand/want to admit to the full extent of it until more recently. One of my earliest related memories involves reading a book too, for me it was about a boy named Sprout with an impressive appetite, I remember in particular a part where he got sick and lost his appetite temporarily and his family's housekeeper was trying to get him eating again by telling him about her daughter who was skinny and she could only get her to eat by "telling her everything you've gotten through". And indeed there were frequent detailed lists of what all Sprout ate, which for me was an early introduction to food porn. I can definitely cite Templeton as one of my early influences as well, along with Winnie the Pooh, and I almost forgot this guy but got reminded again whilst wandering YouTube:

And in the realm of actual humans, I was most positively impressed by The Three Wide Men-John Candy, Chris Farley and Louie Anderson.
 

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Around first grade. After a movie late night movie was over those Paid Programming commercials would come on. Some of which were weight loss commercials. Seeing those women in those before pics in swimsuits gave me a tingling I did not understand nor did I want to reveal. To young me Hansel and Gretel and fat related kids stories felt strange to hear and imagine.

I thought I was the only one until I was in my 20s, when I overheard the term Fat Admirer on some daytime talk show and the rest is history.
 

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I don’t think the scene is in the book. But here it is.
It definitely is in the book, if you read an edition with the original illustrations by Garth Williams (which are all adorable by the way!).

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Always was a memorable illustration for me - and one which was instrumental in realizing I was fascinated by fat. That being as early as elementary school, because that was when I initially read the book.
 

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I'm sorry, I like you're thoughts, but a scaly tailed opossum is so eeek! to me, sorry! But I do see what you mean :)
 

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Like you I didn't fully discover my preference for BHM until I was in my 30s. I think I always had sort of a curiosity toward them, but I just never had the opportunity to fully explore that before. I dated my first BHM when I was about 35 and I was hooked! :D
Women like you makes me feel some hope. I learn each and every day there are women who wants to be with a guy like me because they are attracted to us instead of being with us for some kind of resignation.
 

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Women like you makes me feel some hope. I learn each and every day there are women who wants to be with a guy like me because they are attracted to us instead of being with us for some kind of resignation.
Amy, you once told me: Once you go fat, you don't go back.

Given what I've experienced within the short time since I came out, I'm inclined to agree.
 
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