I hope this is the right place for this.
Firstly, let me say that I do -also- like BHM and BBW myself. Especially large "viking" style BHM with the blond beards and there's something about larger asian girls that gets the-- *wipes drool*. Sorry, sorry. Herp!
Bottom line, when I see a swarthy or pretty (long hair...augh) or avante-garde classy guy who might fit into the stereotypical hot guy trope I, just as my thinner counter parts go a little weak in the knees.
One of two things happens and both are related to guilt.
Internal lambasting: Saw a very tall, nicely built man running along the sidewalk in front of the clinic and kind of leered to myself thinking "Yeaaah-haaah...you just keep running. Enjoying the view immensely". (By the way I am an abortion clinic escort to clear up any confusion) And in the same day saw a very, very attractive thin woman in suede boots on a motorcycle and kind of went WHOA at her. though silently. The following internal dialogue danced between "And what chance do YOU think you have with THEM, Pitch? You're shaped like a blueberry. Be realistic. ): " and then "For all your wanting to be SA, that girl couldn't be more than 120 and the guy looked like one big, tall drink of muscle. Hypocrite, much?"
External Lambasting: Self explanatory-- people reminding you that so-and-so is out of your league due to your size or they might try to set you up with someone now and then just because the person they would like to recommend to you is also big. As if that means your personalities would instantly click.
Anyone else experience this?
Firstly, let me say that I do -also- like BHM and BBW myself. Especially large "viking" style BHM with the blond beards and there's something about larger asian girls that gets the-- *wipes drool*. Sorry, sorry. Herp!
Bottom line, when I see a swarthy or pretty (long hair...augh) or avante-garde classy guy who might fit into the stereotypical hot guy trope I, just as my thinner counter parts go a little weak in the knees.
One of two things happens and both are related to guilt.
Internal lambasting: Saw a very tall, nicely built man running along the sidewalk in front of the clinic and kind of leered to myself thinking "Yeaaah-haaah...you just keep running. Enjoying the view immensely". (By the way I am an abortion clinic escort to clear up any confusion) And in the same day saw a very, very attractive thin woman in suede boots on a motorcycle and kind of went WHOA at her. though silently. The following internal dialogue danced between "And what chance do YOU think you have with THEM, Pitch? You're shaped like a blueberry. Be realistic. ): " and then "For all your wanting to be SA, that girl couldn't be more than 120 and the guy looked like one big, tall drink of muscle. Hypocrite, much?"
External Lambasting: Self explanatory-- people reminding you that so-and-so is out of your league due to your size or they might try to set you up with someone now and then just because the person they would like to recommend to you is also big. As if that means your personalities would instantly click.
Anyone else experience this?
