I’m hoping that I can get everyone’s thoughts and opinions on what I want to say..I have come to the valley of decision in my life.. I have been very large all my life… I have not wanted to lose weight because of some emotional issues that have happened to me in the past and because of being afraid of being thin.. I have been very happy to be around proud and fat people.. I think that being fat is very sexy and I like being original… I have been unlucky in love when it comes to being fat… Everyone seems to enjoy me as a fantasy but in reality you’re not so quick to want to be with me… So, I was diagnosed with spinal stenosis bulging desks herniated disc on top of my fibromyalgia, And both knees being bone and bone… The doctor say that they won’t operate on my back Until I’m around 200 pounds… I’m 480 5’4 and 52 years old ..I struggle every day in my living to get around to take a shower to walk to do the basic things in life… Because of my back issues it has caused sciatica and the sciatica has caused nerve damage in my thighs which make my legs weak.. I wouldn’t mind this if I had somebody that would be there to take care of me and to help me… But it just doesn’t work out that way and I’m just slowly losing every bit of myself and now I’m faced with having to have bypass surgery… This really is the last thing that I wanted… But it seems like things are just getting worse and worse I need more and more care and it’s just not there… So could you guys tell me what you think?