I need some advice from someone other than my now ex partner and family.
Four years ago, I moved in with the first man that I have ever truely loved.
During those years, we have had our good times and bad.
I recently told him to get his shit and get out, cause, he was yelling at the top of his lungs at my 9yo son to get to bed, because he was in trouble. He doesn't like the way that I deal with my son, and I keep telling him, that yelling isn't the best way to handle it. This isn't the first time that we have had a fight about it.
Besides my son, he has a way of talking to me, that one minute, I am a Queen up on the tallest throne, and then the next, like I am not worth anything. I know, that I am far from perfect and I have done things I wish I could change but, can't.
I have a really hard time with trust in a relationship. I have been burned a few times and have a hard time trusting. I think that when two people are in a relationship, it should be honest, no secrets. He says that he needs his privacy. When it comes to the internet, chatting, collecting porn, and past history, it is really hard, to just totally trust someone.
I know that he is going to be pissed off when he sees this post but, I need help moving on. My heart is saying I want him back badly, and my head is saying this is the best thing I could have done. I need help in moving on, I am 44yo and dealing with my first broken heart. Help!!!
Four years ago, I moved in with the first man that I have ever truely loved.
During those years, we have had our good times and bad.
I recently told him to get his shit and get out, cause, he was yelling at the top of his lungs at my 9yo son to get to bed, because he was in trouble. He doesn't like the way that I deal with my son, and I keep telling him, that yelling isn't the best way to handle it. This isn't the first time that we have had a fight about it.
Besides my son, he has a way of talking to me, that one minute, I am a Queen up on the tallest throne, and then the next, like I am not worth anything. I know, that I am far from perfect and I have done things I wish I could change but, can't.
I have a really hard time with trust in a relationship. I have been burned a few times and have a hard time trusting. I think that when two people are in a relationship, it should be honest, no secrets. He says that he needs his privacy. When it comes to the internet, chatting, collecting porn, and past history, it is really hard, to just totally trust someone.
I know that he is going to be pissed off when he sees this post but, I need help moving on. My heart is saying I want him back badly, and my head is saying this is the best thing I could have done. I need help in moving on, I am 44yo and dealing with my first broken heart. Help!!!
