For a long time I always wanted to be very fat. I was chubby as a child and most of my teenage years. I lost weight in my late teens because I played sports. I am only 5"2. I am short for a man. Last year I weighed 145 lbs.
I gained almost 50 lbls last year. Now I weigh 180lbs. I lost a few. I did not gain on purpose. I started out trying to put on muscle. My mom did not like me looking that skinny. My family is ok with my weight.
But I get undecided between wanting to be muscular or fat. I think it is because I am short. So all the confusion ends right now because I accept the fact that I am small and I will always be small. I will no longer try to change that. No matter what I do I will always be 5"2 and looking up to most people on this earth.
I gained almost 50 lbls last year. Now I weigh 180lbs. I lost a few. I did not gain on purpose. I started out trying to put on muscle. My mom did not like me looking that skinny. My family is ok with my weight.
But I get undecided between wanting to be muscular or fat. I think it is because I am short. So all the confusion ends right now because I accept the fact that I am small and I will always be small. I will no longer try to change that. No matter what I do I will always be 5"2 and looking up to most people on this earth.
