Ok I am learning slowly with plenty of backsliding how to handle my emotions. This leads to less binge eating, and more eating when my stomach is grumbling.
This leads to weight loss ultimatley, about 10 more pounds (eyeballing it I dont weight myself) and it will start to become obvious.
I hate feeling vulnerable and unprotected, and I put all these unrealistic expectation if I were to be thin. You know a 'perfect person' with a perfect life. This freaks me out and I rebel by binging, so I gaint the weight back. I would estimate this is the same 15 pounds I have lost 5 times in the last year. That cannot be healthy for me, I know its a small amount but it still cannot be good for me.
Here is the question: How do I convince myself that even if I were thin I would still have the same flaws and NOT pannic when boys notice me?
This leads to weight loss ultimatley, about 10 more pounds (eyeballing it I dont weight myself) and it will start to become obvious.
I hate feeling vulnerable and unprotected, and I put all these unrealistic expectation if I were to be thin. You know a 'perfect person' with a perfect life. This freaks me out and I rebel by binging, so I gaint the weight back. I would estimate this is the same 15 pounds I have lost 5 times in the last year. That cannot be healthy for me, I know its a small amount but it still cannot be good for me.
Here is the question: How do I convince myself that even if I were thin I would still have the same flaws and NOT pannic when boys notice me?
