Oh dear Lord, I hope I do not get flamed for this.
As I sit here eating a bowl of fresh strawberries, it weighs heavily on my mind that I -gasp- used to be a feedee. But for mental, physical, and spiritual reasons I can no longer engage in that lifestyle. Still, those same old feelings run deep and no matter how much I try to shut the feedee fantasies out of my mind, they are always lurking in the background.
I wonder if there are others out there like me, with a great fondness for fat yet are unable to act on those desires.
Sometimes I see men who are personal trainers or otherwise involved in health and activity post on the boards. I can truly empathize with that feeling of being pulled in both directions. I love to be healthy, active, and yes - slim (which I am not). Yet like a child to it's favorite blanket, I always come back to this comfortable feeling.
As I sit here eating a bowl of fresh strawberries, it weighs heavily on my mind that I -gasp- used to be a feedee. But for mental, physical, and spiritual reasons I can no longer engage in that lifestyle. Still, those same old feelings run deep and no matter how much I try to shut the feedee fantasies out of my mind, they are always lurking in the background.
I wonder if there are others out there like me, with a great fondness for fat yet are unable to act on those desires.
Sometimes I see men who are personal trainers or otherwise involved in health and activity post on the boards. I can truly empathize with that feeling of being pulled in both directions. I love to be healthy, active, and yes - slim (which I am not). Yet like a child to it's favorite blanket, I always come back to this comfortable feeling.
