Does anyone else here have a hard time resisting illicit (aka hidden or sneaky) eating? You know, when someone leaves pastries at the coffee station and each time you go by you have one, never being seen to pig out on them, but eating more than your share? Or while cleaning up after a big meal sneaking in a few more big bites of your favorites? Or maybe on the way to work grabbing a totally reasonable seeming coffee and bagel, although you just had a full breakfast?
I just may be addicted to this sort of behavior. It is not even, or not just, a sexual-feedee sort of rush, at least for me it seems to be some very basic thing, probably still channeling my childhood revolt against parental food monitoring or something. All I know for sure is that although Ive just gained ten pounds unintentionally and have vowed to lose at least some of it, Ive hit the happy new year goodies basket in our lunch room at least half a dozen times today, with the instinct to have a hidden snack totally overwhelming the logical part of my mind that is saying no.
Of course, in the end it all shows up on my belly, but for me that is half encouragement and half discouragement, so it balances out. Mind you one of my abiding fantasies is to have a sneak eating partner in crime, someone who could appreciate both the thrill and the consequent growth.
Regards;
-Ed
I just may be addicted to this sort of behavior. It is not even, or not just, a sexual-feedee sort of rush, at least for me it seems to be some very basic thing, probably still channeling my childhood revolt against parental food monitoring or something. All I know for sure is that although Ive just gained ten pounds unintentionally and have vowed to lose at least some of it, Ive hit the happy new year goodies basket in our lunch room at least half a dozen times today, with the instinct to have a hidden snack totally overwhelming the logical part of my mind that is saying no.
Of course, in the end it all shows up on my belly, but for me that is half encouragement and half discouragement, so it balances out. Mind you one of my abiding fantasies is to have a sneak eating partner in crime, someone who could appreciate both the thrill and the consequent growth.
Regards;
-Ed
