okay, so to start off... sorry if this is totally in the wrong place!
I was at a big family gathering recently. most people hadn't seen me since I started university, so what... about 9 months? since that time I'd lost a lot of weight. now, it's not a big deal to me, I've not really noticed it, it just sort of... happened.
what really got me, though, is that... it was all people would talk to me about. not, "how was your first year" or anything like that, which I would guess is a fairly... good thing to ask a person. no, it was just weight. which really bothered me, though I'm not entirely sure why.
similarly, I bumped into one of my old teachers, who is seemingly quite a fitness nut. this experience bothered me similarly- it was the way he said things like, "good for you!" like, he was rewarding me for closer adhering to what he thinks a person really should look like. and there was just something about that that really bothered me.
I'm quite aware that this probably seems really... rambling or whatnot, and I've actually forgotten what the point was I was actually trying to make. I guess I'm just trying to make light of this.
I was at a big family gathering recently. most people hadn't seen me since I started university, so what... about 9 months? since that time I'd lost a lot of weight. now, it's not a big deal to me, I've not really noticed it, it just sort of... happened.
what really got me, though, is that... it was all people would talk to me about. not, "how was your first year" or anything like that, which I would guess is a fairly... good thing to ask a person. no, it was just weight. which really bothered me, though I'm not entirely sure why.
similarly, I bumped into one of my old teachers, who is seemingly quite a fitness nut. this experience bothered me similarly- it was the way he said things like, "good for you!" like, he was rewarding me for closer adhering to what he thinks a person really should look like. and there was just something about that that really bothered me.
I'm quite aware that this probably seems really... rambling or whatnot, and I've actually forgotten what the point was I was actually trying to make. I guess I'm just trying to make light of this.
