I am a nursing student. In clinicals the other day I was assigned to a nurse who is known for giving students a hard time. I had met him once before, but he didn't intimidate me. He just seemed like a an intelligent, fit, sometimes cocky type of guy. The first thing I noticed when I went to speak with him about report was that he had gained 10-15 pounds. I thought he looked really good. Then I noticed he wasn't giving me a hard time. He was actually making these fragile eyes at me. I don't quite know how to explain it but I felt he was attracted to me and I also felt an emotional pull towards him. Throughout the shift he made small talk with me and praised my work with my assigned patient. Whenever I looked in his face or watched him as he walked away I could feel his slight insecurity and awkwardness. I didn't understand why, as he is a great looking man! Once I went home I added him to my facebook. After looking through his pictures I saw that he used to be really big. Probably close to 300 pounds. He was still a handsome guy then... He doesn't have a girlfriend and from what I can tell hasn't had one in a long time.
I know I may just be kidding myself thinking we had a connection but honestly I feel like this is someone I might be able to relate to... We are both into a lot of the same things. I know he works out a lot and is into health.. and I ADORE male nurses. I think any man who wants to deal with the things nurses see on a daily basis is a-ok in my book. I'm rambling now but here is the thing.... I know how it feels to be fat.. and that feeling never goes away. No matter how fit I get, being fat is still a part of me, and it annoys me when I lose weight and guys start showing me all this attention. I think, "you didn't give a shit about me when I was big so why would I give you the time of day now?" Hell, with my luck I'll probably get fat again. So I understand the fat mentality all too well and wonder if he has that going on inside his brain. Granted this fat empathy is not the extent of my attraction to him.
I left a comment on one of his facebook posts but I always worry I am coming on too strong. I suppose I wasn't.. he said something about baking a tofu/pumpkin pie and I told him that sounded like it could be good and asked what kind of crust he used.. then I said some nerdy thing like 'enjoy your phytonutrients' and now I feel like a total cheeseball. I have been hurt and rejected in the past so I don't want to approach him only to turn him off. He knows a lot of people I go to school with so I don't want to be teased either. In my experience a guy who really likes you will make the first move... and I don't want to come across as aggressive. But I like him so much and can't stop thinking about him! What should I do?!!! P.S. he is 25 and I am 26. Please help me!!!
I know I may just be kidding myself thinking we had a connection but honestly I feel like this is someone I might be able to relate to... We are both into a lot of the same things. I know he works out a lot and is into health.. and I ADORE male nurses. I think any man who wants to deal with the things nurses see on a daily basis is a-ok in my book. I'm rambling now but here is the thing.... I know how it feels to be fat.. and that feeling never goes away. No matter how fit I get, being fat is still a part of me, and it annoys me when I lose weight and guys start showing me all this attention. I think, "you didn't give a shit about me when I was big so why would I give you the time of day now?" Hell, with my luck I'll probably get fat again. So I understand the fat mentality all too well and wonder if he has that going on inside his brain. Granted this fat empathy is not the extent of my attraction to him.
I left a comment on one of his facebook posts but I always worry I am coming on too strong. I suppose I wasn't.. he said something about baking a tofu/pumpkin pie and I told him that sounded like it could be good and asked what kind of crust he used.. then I said some nerdy thing like 'enjoy your phytonutrients' and now I feel like a total cheeseball. I have been hurt and rejected in the past so I don't want to approach him only to turn him off. He knows a lot of people I go to school with so I don't want to be teased either. In my experience a guy who really likes you will make the first move... and I don't want to come across as aggressive. But I like him so much and can't stop thinking about him! What should I do?!!! P.S. he is 25 and I am 26. Please help me!!!
