I have been thinking about this topic lately. I think it's time for me to share, and Dimensions seems like a place that will appreciate it...
I was always chubby and grew up in an un-supportive environment. My father was obsessed with my weight, unfairly though because he was a big man himself. My mother did her best, but he was "The King". So I always thought it was a horrible thing to be fat. My father told me that "no one wants to be with a fat girl" "You'll be alone forever" "When you grow up you'll only be a fat lazy broad" Great stuff like that...so needless to say I quickly developed a complex.
But, a marvelous event happen when I was around 11 years old...
My dad had a friend, we'll call him Tom. I always had a crush on Tom as a kid, I thought he was super cute and he was, well, hard to describe, but I always liked him. He was a photographer which I always thought was awesome, we even visited his studio before (super cool). We didn't see Tom that much, he lived 2 hours away.
So, we went down to see his new house one day. I was sitting on the couch, watching TV with my mom. Dad & Tom were probably doin guy stuff, I don't quite remember. Now, this was back in the days before cable tv had the guide channel, so they would send you a card with a listing of what networks were on what channel (you know you remember). I picked up the card, the front was hand written in script, and on the back was a photo of a curvy queen. It was a stunning black & white photo, the rear/side view of a beautiful BBW. She was gazing out of a window wearing nothing but a pair of shoes. It wasn't vulgar or obscene, it was just beautiful. On the photo was the caption "Annie's Fannie".
I wasn't quite sure what to think about it, and my mom said "oh ya, that's Tom's old girlfriend. He has always dated chubby girls"
Wait a minute here - You mean guys actually date chubby chicks?! Guys actually go out and look for large ladies? They don't just "end up" with them? What?! I had never heard of this before! You have GOT TO BE JOKING! TOM?! TOM DATES FAT GIRLS?! It was such an earth shaking revelation for me! A little bit of the distorted body image melted off...and the more I thought about it, the better I felt!
I'll never forgot that moment, the moment I realized it was ok to be fat. And, it probably goes through my head on a daily basis. Whenever I start feeling a little down (ya those moments still happen) I always think about "Annie's Fannie", and I get a smile on my face.
I never got the chance to meet Annie, but I'm giving a public thank you to her, and her fannie.
-G-
I was always chubby and grew up in an un-supportive environment. My father was obsessed with my weight, unfairly though because he was a big man himself. My mother did her best, but he was "The King". So I always thought it was a horrible thing to be fat. My father told me that "no one wants to be with a fat girl" "You'll be alone forever" "When you grow up you'll only be a fat lazy broad" Great stuff like that...so needless to say I quickly developed a complex.
But, a marvelous event happen when I was around 11 years old...
My dad had a friend, we'll call him Tom. I always had a crush on Tom as a kid, I thought he was super cute and he was, well, hard to describe, but I always liked him. He was a photographer which I always thought was awesome, we even visited his studio before (super cool). We didn't see Tom that much, he lived 2 hours away.
So, we went down to see his new house one day. I was sitting on the couch, watching TV with my mom. Dad & Tom were probably doin guy stuff, I don't quite remember. Now, this was back in the days before cable tv had the guide channel, so they would send you a card with a listing of what networks were on what channel (you know you remember). I picked up the card, the front was hand written in script, and on the back was a photo of a curvy queen. It was a stunning black & white photo, the rear/side view of a beautiful BBW. She was gazing out of a window wearing nothing but a pair of shoes. It wasn't vulgar or obscene, it was just beautiful. On the photo was the caption "Annie's Fannie".
I wasn't quite sure what to think about it, and my mom said "oh ya, that's Tom's old girlfriend. He has always dated chubby girls"
Wait a minute here - You mean guys actually date chubby chicks?! Guys actually go out and look for large ladies? They don't just "end up" with them? What?! I had never heard of this before! You have GOT TO BE JOKING! TOM?! TOM DATES FAT GIRLS?! It was such an earth shaking revelation for me! A little bit of the distorted body image melted off...and the more I thought about it, the better I felt!
I'll never forgot that moment, the moment I realized it was ok to be fat. And, it probably goes through my head on a daily basis. Whenever I start feeling a little down (ya those moments still happen) I always think about "Annie's Fannie", and I get a smile on my face.
I never got the chance to meet Annie, but I'm giving a public thank you to her, and her fannie.
-G-
