I confess: I'm not really fat.
I have been underweight all my life, and I'm sick of it. At 155cm and 42kg, I decided to gain 10kg by Christmas to surprise my boyfriend, because it was no fun having ribs, hips and backbones sticking out and my nipples and stomach sticking in. (In the metric system, that would be 5'1" and 93lbs, resulting in an unhealthy 17.5 BMI).
When my grandmother married at age 26, she told me that she was super-skinny, and that her nipples actually poked inward too, and I'm absolutely horrified that that will be me at her age. Since I'm only 18, I hope I have time to reverse that.
I know there's a chubby girl inside me waiting to get out, because I get really arroused seeing plump women, watching them eat and play with themselves, and I love eating too. I can eat a medium-sized pizza all by myself in one sitting (it's not as much as y'all can do, but consider that I'm tiny!)
I've managed to gain 5 kgs or 11lbs since August, which is absolutely amazing considering this is the heaviest I've ever been: 47.2 kg or 104 lbs. But, I know I did it wrong, on the basis of no exercise, half a large pizza and a pot of Haagen Dazs a day. Recently, I've started feeling pains in my heart, and I know I should stop eating junk food, because that's not the right way to do it.
I think the reason I was able to gain so fast is because I was eating all wrong. After being depressed for a couple of days because my I might not reach my goal, I told my boyfriend what was going on.
He didn't know that I wanted to gain weight. I had written some erotic stories about him surprising me with food, feeding me, and such, but he had no idea the way I felt about my body. So, I told him that I loved it when he called me "little piggy" when I would eat a lot in front of him, and that he would play with my (lack of) tummy, but that I was sad because I wish I had more for him to play with.
As it turns out, he LOVED the idea. When I told him that I felt a little undecided he said he DEMANDED it. I was so pleased! He wasn't an FA before, but I managed to introduce the idea through my stories. His previous girlfriend was a bit on the pudgy side, and so is a girl he has his eye on in Manchester (I live in Brazil and we agreed to keep our relationship open while we're apart in college). He never expressed a desire to fatten me up, so I don't think he was a FA before.
So, he made me a schedule and set the rules. I trust him, so I let him make up the rules. He wanted me to gain 13kgs or 29lbs and get to 55kg or 121lbs, but I told him that I really couldn't do that by Christmas. (Perhaps on Christmas day I will, with my aunt's delicious cooking! :eat2
So, we set a round-number goal of 10kgs or 22lbs, so I would weigh in total 52kgs or 114lbs.
Now, here's where I need help: I made a calculation of the extra calories I need, and it turns out I need to double my calorie intake, which should be a pleasure, but that I will struggle with. How do I get 3,000 calories per day without eating too many sweets, or any junkfood and chips at all? I'm scared of failing, because although I love to eat a lot at once, I usually don't do it every day. Today I ate 1400 calories (my original daily intake) in breakfast today, and I felt sick.
I refuse to frequent McDonalds and fast-food chains, drink more than 1 soda per day, or load up on the sweets, because my family has a history of diabetes and heart disease. (My cousin has diabetes probably because can't get enough of my aunt's heavenly cooking. I want the food, just not the health problem).
So, could you help me think of healthy things to eat that I can eat up in large amounts? Hopefully I will reach the goal, because my boyfriend says he doesn't want to see me in December (when he comes to visit) without me being at least 52. He's kidding about the not seeing me part, of course, but that's his way of being supportive!
Thanks!
I have been underweight all my life, and I'm sick of it. At 155cm and 42kg, I decided to gain 10kg by Christmas to surprise my boyfriend, because it was no fun having ribs, hips and backbones sticking out and my nipples and stomach sticking in. (In the metric system, that would be 5'1" and 93lbs, resulting in an unhealthy 17.5 BMI).
When my grandmother married at age 26, she told me that she was super-skinny, and that her nipples actually poked inward too, and I'm absolutely horrified that that will be me at her age. Since I'm only 18, I hope I have time to reverse that.
I know there's a chubby girl inside me waiting to get out, because I get really arroused seeing plump women, watching them eat and play with themselves, and I love eating too. I can eat a medium-sized pizza all by myself in one sitting (it's not as much as y'all can do, but consider that I'm tiny!)
I've managed to gain 5 kgs or 11lbs since August, which is absolutely amazing considering this is the heaviest I've ever been: 47.2 kg or 104 lbs. But, I know I did it wrong, on the basis of no exercise, half a large pizza and a pot of Haagen Dazs a day. Recently, I've started feeling pains in my heart, and I know I should stop eating junk food, because that's not the right way to do it.
I think the reason I was able to gain so fast is because I was eating all wrong. After being depressed for a couple of days because my I might not reach my goal, I told my boyfriend what was going on.
He didn't know that I wanted to gain weight. I had written some erotic stories about him surprising me with food, feeding me, and such, but he had no idea the way I felt about my body. So, I told him that I loved it when he called me "little piggy" when I would eat a lot in front of him, and that he would play with my (lack of) tummy, but that I was sad because I wish I had more for him to play with.
As it turns out, he LOVED the idea. When I told him that I felt a little undecided he said he DEMANDED it. I was so pleased! He wasn't an FA before, but I managed to introduce the idea through my stories. His previous girlfriend was a bit on the pudgy side, and so is a girl he has his eye on in Manchester (I live in Brazil and we agreed to keep our relationship open while we're apart in college). He never expressed a desire to fatten me up, so I don't think he was a FA before.
So, he made me a schedule and set the rules. I trust him, so I let him make up the rules. He wanted me to gain 13kgs or 29lbs and get to 55kg or 121lbs, but I told him that I really couldn't do that by Christmas. (Perhaps on Christmas day I will, with my aunt's delicious cooking! :eat2
So, we set a round-number goal of 10kgs or 22lbs, so I would weigh in total 52kgs or 114lbs.Now, here's where I need help: I made a calculation of the extra calories I need, and it turns out I need to double my calorie intake, which should be a pleasure, but that I will struggle with. How do I get 3,000 calories per day without eating too many sweets, or any junkfood and chips at all? I'm scared of failing, because although I love to eat a lot at once, I usually don't do it every day. Today I ate 1400 calories (my original daily intake) in breakfast today, and I felt sick.
I refuse to frequent McDonalds and fast-food chains, drink more than 1 soda per day, or load up on the sweets, because my family has a history of diabetes and heart disease. (My cousin has diabetes probably because can't get enough of my aunt's heavenly cooking. I want the food, just not the health problem).
So, could you help me think of healthy things to eat that I can eat up in large amounts? Hopefully I will reach the goal, because my boyfriend says he doesn't want to see me in December (when he comes to visit) without me being at least 52. He's kidding about the not seeing me part, of course, but that's his way of being supportive!
Thanks!
