((hugs)) This made me really sad to read, because I used to be a bit like this myself. Still am if I don't force myself to get out there and do things.I hate how Shy I am.
I drove downtown tonight to go to a party and i got there, paid for parking and then I just couldn't go.
I used to be the loudest guy who would introduce myself with arrogant confident bullcrap. Now I cant get myself to hang out with my friends, because all I do is worry.
It comes from the fact that I always feel like a burden on the people around me, family, friends, etc. whether or not its true I will restrict myself from calling or hanging out with my friends and cousins just because I think I'm a bad influence and I'll bring them down.
Its why I never approach anyone I don't already know. I assume every woman is tired of strangers walking up and striking a conversation, so I never do. Even if she smiles at me first I never act because I always have the itching feeling that I'm going to ruin your life.
Lonely and shy are a terrible combination.
My problems are so inconsequential compared to a lot of the things I am seeing, Sorry to even do this, this is even hard to write because I feel like I am pushing my problems off onto others, I just had to get this off my chest, I don't really have anyone I can talk to about this crap.
I am scared, i cannot find my wallet. I had ~$90 cash and all the thing si need ot start my job today (ID and SS Card) in it. I am truly worried because i think i had it in my bathing suit yesterday while riding my bike for an hour.
Pray.... for...... me.......... im about to go through my room a thrd time.
Anything........ but.... this.. i will find it... i have to...........................................................
I even just retraced my track on the beach. The boardwalk stairs, too. Didnt see it.....................................................................
Im starting to think the roaches got it. They have violated our understanding! lolI forgot my wallet too but know exactly where it is provided my house doesn't eat it.
I'm not alone in sending you my best thoughts, wishes, and prayers for comfort and peace. May the Lord lift you up.I work very hard at staying positive. But there are times when I just feel plain awful like right now. My soon to be ex husband is just terrible and disrespectful. There is so much I can say about him, but I don't have the energy. I want to feel whole again. I am trying to put the pieces of my life back together. It's a challenge. Please say a prayer for me. xoxoxo
Edgar,Some records were never meant to be broken. A prime example is this irreplaceable 78 RPM, 4 Record Set of Christmas Songs by Mario Lanza, one of the top 5 greatest tenors of all time, that was destroyed in shipment to me. 78's are made of shellac, as shellac pre-dates vinyl and is very brittle
Thanks, M2M! I won't have too much trouble getting over the loss of those records, as the seller has already fully refunded and your links are helpful, too. I'm already working on another 78 to play on my Deccollaro in the upcoming DimmerLand Christmas video. Things are looking up for the project.Edgar,
I agree with you Mario Lanza has the voice of an angel. He is one of my favorite male singers. I feel your pain. To help console you, person you can retrieve a few valuable digital recording from some of the websites I collected for you. (You might also ask if anyone has a copy of the lost collection of Christmas albums.)