am i the only one who feels like im trying to hide a fucking zebra in a room full of people with this? it just seems to be eating away at me trying to not 'like what i like.' losing my fucking mind it seems. ive been with my boyfriend for a year now and it's gotten to the point where i dont want to touch his middle. every part of me screams inside that it's what i want to touch; what i need to touch. but i cant; i go around it all. i feel as though i shouldnt want to and that it does nothing but make him already more uncomfortable with extra weight as well as thinking theres something wrong with me. i love him to death but all i feel now is that i wont ever be satisfied because of my own strange likes and ill never be comfortable with being honest with him or anyone else.