Hey y'all I'm Chenee; I'm 24, living in Chicago, and currently studying for an exam on Monday (wish me luck!) I introduced myself on the intro thread, but I just wanted to take a second to comment further on this site.
In the past day or so, I've looked at this site and others, and they have been a huge revelation for me. I seriously never imagined there existed a positive attitude toward women my size. My whole life I've struggled with a low self-esteem and self-loathing because of my weight, and I've never gotten much attention from men. I knew that it wasn't just my weight; it was also my lack of confidence and my shyness around them. I can't tell you how many times I've broken down into tears, thinking that I'd never be accepted or have the life I wanted until I lost a LOT of weight. But I always held out hope that there were guys out there that would be able to look past my size and see my inner self, and appreciate me in spite of my weight.
"Look past"... "inner self".. "in spite of"... I always thought that these were the only ways that a big woman could be appreciated. Like, "even though she's big, she's kinda cute" or the worst: "she WOULD be cute IF she lost weight." It NEVER occurred to me that there were actually men out there who appreciated a woman BECAUSE of her size, not in spite of it. It's such a breath of fresh air to see that there are actually people out there that consider themselves "admirers" of women like me
Anyway, I just want to say thanks in advance to the posters on these boards, for inspiring me and providing encouragement to work on my own confidence and self-worth. The bbw's and bhm's i've seen on here are so confident and self-assured, I sincerely hope to learn from you guys. Oh and the FA's are awesome -- seriously, I still can't believe you guys exist!) I really appreciate the fact that this board exists, and I'm really looking forward to talking with you all!
Sorry for the length -- I get wordy
In the past day or so, I've looked at this site and others, and they have been a huge revelation for me. I seriously never imagined there existed a positive attitude toward women my size. My whole life I've struggled with a low self-esteem and self-loathing because of my weight, and I've never gotten much attention from men. I knew that it wasn't just my weight; it was also my lack of confidence and my shyness around them. I can't tell you how many times I've broken down into tears, thinking that I'd never be accepted or have the life I wanted until I lost a LOT of weight. But I always held out hope that there were guys out there that would be able to look past my size and see my inner self, and appreciate me in spite of my weight.
"Look past"... "inner self".. "in spite of"... I always thought that these were the only ways that a big woman could be appreciated. Like, "even though she's big, she's kinda cute" or the worst: "she WOULD be cute IF she lost weight." It NEVER occurred to me that there were actually men out there who appreciated a woman BECAUSE of her size, not in spite of it. It's such a breath of fresh air to see that there are actually people out there that consider themselves "admirers" of women like me
Anyway, I just want to say thanks in advance to the posters on these boards, for inspiring me and providing encouragement to work on my own confidence and self-worth. The bbw's and bhm's i've seen on here are so confident and self-assured, I sincerely hope to learn from you guys. Oh and the FA's are awesome -- seriously, I still can't believe you guys exist!) I really appreciate the fact that this board exists, and I'm really looking forward to talking with you all!
Sorry for the length -- I get wordy
