Padding!

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  1. May 13, 2018 #1

    shadowcat

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    Padding was a big part of me as it was the only way I could live my fantasies. I would love to hear your experiences.

    Around the age of six or seven, after being fascinated by weight gain on others, I started to fantasize about getting fat myself. The weird feelings I got were more intense. So intense, I convinced my childhood friends to play games in which I was the fat character. I remember loving the feeling. Looking down seeing a belly bulging out, how thick I felt, and feeling my belly rest on my lap, gave me a sense of heart racing excitement which could have been some form of arousal. I could not understand why I liked/wanted this.

    Around 9, I started doing it in private in the dead of night. I was starting a quest to make it look and feel as realistic as possible. At 12, I was slowly gathering materials such as sweat pants and special pillows. Eventually, I finally got the weight and jiggle I desired when I filled a beach ball with water. But it was so heavy it kept falling out. I got a hold of a one piece swim suit to hold everything together. Over it I wore a flesh colored shirt, even going as far as to sew a bellybutton on it. I basically built my own fat suit.
    Late 12, my first sexual experience happened while padding. Since then, all my padding sessions had to end that way.

    I padded up every chance I knew I would be alone for hours at a time. My curiosity led me to leave my room to my parents room so I could see myself in their wall high mirror. Looking at myself in my fattened form the feeling was other worldly. I often loss track of time watching myself sitting and laying to exercising to eating. I got more daring and started roaming around the house living like a fat person.

    Then one day at 17, after a few day of false alarm noises, I became reckless. I was in my parents room in a state of fullness and arousal the world faded away. I was imagining being full after being fed by someone. I was then jolted back to reality. My family came home earlier than expected! They were already in and I couldn't run to my room. I could hear my heartbeat in my ears as I bolted to the bathroom all padded up. My parents talked to me asking about my day through the bathroom door. I answered calmly. I took everything off and his it under the sink and snuck to my room in a towel.

    I felt so strange. This is not normal, I thought. I still was in a state of panic. Under the darkness, I threw away everything I had relating to this fetish- padding clothes, stories I wrote, and drawings. Ending a weird chapter of my life.

    This whole time I though I was the only one. Never had a clue that there were others. I still had the occasional fantasy. It wasn't until I was 23 I found this place.
     
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  2. Jan 4, 2019 #2

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    Yes, very familiar. I started at about 4 or 5. Forced feeding and weight gain scenarios from cartoons and television fueled my early imagination. In these nascent fantasies, I would be a girl who is fattened against her will. I am certain that my first organisms were a product of padding role-play. A favorite resource was my mother's panty hose. The fear of detection only added to the excitement. There were, of course, a number of close calls.

    I continued into adolescence and adulthood. I don't remember exactly when I finally stopped fantasizing I was a fat woman and embraced the concept/fantasy of a girlfriend/wife who would be my feeder. In my 30s I started going out padded in public -- to weight-loss clinics, bakeries, diners, and bars. I usually found myself very invisible. On one or two occasions I felt I had been identified as being in costume -- when I was particularly thin and my angular face didn't reconcile with my torso.

    Gaining almost 40 pounds in my 40s, I developed just enough of a shadow of a double chin that I was more convincing in my presentation.

    I would love to invest in a realistic, professional fat suit and be subjected to a professional make-over artist, at least once. However, I don't believe my wife would understand this kink, so I keep it under wraps.

    My wife has "struggled" with her weight since the age of 12, and this past year she is proud to have gone from a size 16+ to a size 10. I think the fat fetish would alarm her, and we already have enough problems with our relationship.
     
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  3. Jan 5, 2019 #3

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    I had a similar experience in childhood, taking padding from something I did around others without reservation to something I realized was unusual, and needed to be private. When I was little I would casually pad at home, but it quickly became something I only did in private once I noticed that nobody else I knew seemed nearly as fascinated by fat as I was. Around 11 or 12 (forget exactly when) is when it first took on a sexual tone, because that's when I realized that the excitement I felt was arousal. I've had my share of close calls as well, some just as close as yours! Though I never threw out my padding gear in an attempt to rid myself of the kink.
     
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  4. Jan 22, 2019 #4

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    I can relate to those strange things! But I never went out in public.

    Thanks! Would love to talk more about padding!
     

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