I just want to hug you and take all your pain away if not just for a little while.Been a bit of a week, in ways from the trivial to possibly less so.
At the trivial level, I'm going on some training for work later in October, four nights away in a suburb of Toronto. The classes will eat up most of each day, but I was looking forward doing some shopping down there, possibly making my way into Toronto proper to meet up with some people for dinner, and maybe an evening of eating way too much. Now I found out that my boss and some other people from my new department are also going to it, and it is right beside my company's Mississauga office where a couple of more people in our group are, so I'm pretty sure I'm going to have to do a fair bit of work socializing after the classes are done. I was just looking forward to a little alone time, sigh.
That pettiness out of the way, my Father's cancer has been getting much better in most areas, but seems to have spread into his spinal column. Doctor thinks they can deal with that with a focused round of radiation therapy, but that will a) put a pause on the chemotherapy that has been helping with the rest of it, and b) generally suck massively for him. From what I understand, miserable as chemo can be, radiation is worse.
And finally I had an optometrist appointment this week, and he found that I have some glaucoma starting in one eye. Hopefully can be stopped or extremely slowed down with treatment to lower the pressure in my eyes (drops, and if they don't work surgery). Apparently I've lost a lot of the upper peripheral vision in one eye, and there is the risk of more loss, although hopefully that can be stopped or slowed down. Probably an unnoticeable loss of quality of life, but has the potential to be much worse. The discovery has left me feeling rather old, all told.
Lots of people are dealing with far, far, worse every day, and life is generally very good. I'm just feeling a bit down from things all the same.
I know that feeling. Sometimes it helps me to recall this poem of Piet Hein's:I am exhausted and completely emotionally drained. After a long illness and has several recent declines my husband's grandfather died last night. My aunt died less than 1 month ago. Just had a long day at work and now I am going to my in-laws to help pick out pictures for the funeral. It would be nice if the world could just stop and give me a break for a little while.
That sounds so emotionally draining. I hope you get a chance to re-charge some soon.I am exhausted and completely emotionally drained. After a long illness and has several recent declines my husband's grandfather died last night. My aunt died less than 1 month ago. Just had a long day at work and now I am going to my in-laws to help pick out pictures for the funeral. It would be nice if the world could just stop and give me a break for a little while.